In rain
I sighted. How long it has been? A week? A month? More than two months? A year? I didn’t count the time; it’s just going too slow from the moment he left. I wasn’t ready to hear his announcement to leave me, not break up, but leave for sake of his studies. I know now. I still feel as if it’s just yesterday, as he smiled at me with his stupid smile and offered a quick hug.
It’s raining, yet again. I should forget him, I know. He isn’t calling, writing nor giving any sight.
“Sorry the number you have dialed is no longer available.”
I looked up at the sky. It’s starting to rain, heavily and the raindrops stick in my hair, roll down my face. It’s hard to see, to understand which way I’m going.
Why didn’t I take an umbrella with me? Where were my thoughts? Oh, I know.
The street is wet, my clothes are all soaked and I don’t care. I just don’t know why, usually I want to find the first place to hide in, but this time I let myself to walk around. I really don’t mind some wetness, but then it hits me- what if I get sick? I have-oh right, I have no one who would take care of me.
“Hyukkie, why you didn’t took an umbrella with you? See, you’re all wet now.” The he looked in my eyes, approaching with a towel and touched my head to dry them. I wanted to say that I can do it by myself, it’s okay, nothing will happen, if I let them wet for some more time, but his smooth, gentle movements shows the care I loved to see coming from him.
“Hey, DongHae, that’s enough.” I laughed, when it all get just too long for my liking.
“No, there are some more wetness and here, and here.” The towel was now drying my neck and face, going even lower.
“Mmm, just admit that you just like to touch me a lot.”
“That also.” He laughed.
Then I look up, I should be more careful and find some dry place to hide. As I like to do so. So where am I?
Big trees, small path and flowers- so it’s a park. I see a swing on the left side, it seems so familiar, and the place is so familiar.
Forget. Forget. I laugh sarcastically. I want to forget, right? Then why the hell I come to the place we met the first time, eh? I just knew that I can’t let myself to walk around like this. My legs have leaded me here. I have walked this direction so many times that the path is well known and drawn deep in my head.
“Stop teasing. Just come here and I’ll swing you.”
“I’m coming, hyukkie.” He ran right in my hands and I nearly fell down backwards.
“I didn’t mean to do like this.” I laughed along with him trying to get back my balance. It was harder that I thought and we landed on the ground, legs tangled and faces really close.
I stood besides the swing staring at it dumbly. I should find a place to hide not-oh, how I miss this guy. So sweet, caring and ready to smile only for me.
The rain isn’t stopping and I shiver. It’s cold. Why I’m only wearing jeans, t-shirt and a simple jacket?
Suddenly I stopped to feel raindrops on my face and I looked up. I was under umbrella. I haven’t noticed that someone was here. I turned to that person to probably to mutter ‘thank you’, but my mouth just opens and closes, as I see who that person is.
DongHae... DongHae?
When I was off my first shock, I saw that he was smiling faintly. I reached for the hand that was holding the umbrella and as I touched the warm skin there was no any doubt- he is here.
He said no word and I didn’t speak either, but studied his face. Time hasn’t changed him a lot, only his hairs were longer, face manlier.
Suddenly he breaks into a smile, childishly full of hidden happiness. I see the looks he send to that old swing, as if it’s some kind of treasure.
Could it be--?
“I missed you, you know. I just arrived and decided to walk around before taking my walk back home.” I almost could believe that moment, nothing had changed, that it’s the same as before.
It’s the time that passed which makes all this not so easy and I don’t know anymore what he thinks, but these words give me a hope, and I ask, “You mean that you haven’t forgotten me?” this question sounded so hopeful even in my ears.
I hear no sound coming from his lips as he turns at me as we stands now; face to face, I look in these eyes and for some time feel like drowning in the depth of them. His arms go around my waist and pull me close in a tight hug, not caring if the umbrella is or isn’t covering us anymore. I hear the heart beat, fast and feeling so strong. I smile on his shoulder.
Maybe it isn’t that bad anymore to be out in the rain. He is here to accompany me.
[I cannot wait I'm sure
No need to complicate
Our time is short]
edited 11.09.08
It’s raining, yet again. I should forget him, I know. He isn’t calling, writing nor giving any sight.
“Sorry the number you have dialed is no longer available.”
I looked up at the sky. It’s starting to rain, heavily and the raindrops stick in my hair, roll down my face. It’s hard to see, to understand which way I’m going.
Why didn’t I take an umbrella with me? Where were my thoughts? Oh, I know.
The street is wet, my clothes are all soaked and I don’t care. I just don’t know why, usually I want to find the first place to hide in, but this time I let myself to walk around. I really don’t mind some wetness, but then it hits me- what if I get sick? I have-oh right, I have no one who would take care of me.
“Hyukkie, why you didn’t took an umbrella with you? See, you’re all wet now.” The he looked in my eyes, approaching with a towel and touched my head to dry them. I wanted to say that I can do it by myself, it’s okay, nothing will happen, if I let them wet for some more time, but his smooth, gentle movements shows the care I loved to see coming from him.
“Hey, DongHae, that’s enough.” I laughed, when it all get just too long for my liking.
“No, there are some more wetness and here, and here.” The towel was now drying my neck and face, going even lower.
“Mmm, just admit that you just like to touch me a lot.”
“That also.” He laughed.
Then I look up, I should be more careful and find some dry place to hide. As I like to do so. So where am I?
Big trees, small path and flowers- so it’s a park. I see a swing on the left side, it seems so familiar, and the place is so familiar.
Forget. Forget. I laugh sarcastically. I want to forget, right? Then why the hell I come to the place we met the first time, eh? I just knew that I can’t let myself to walk around like this. My legs have leaded me here. I have walked this direction so many times that the path is well known and drawn deep in my head.
“Stop teasing. Just come here and I’ll swing you.”
“I’m coming, hyukkie.” He ran right in my hands and I nearly fell down backwards.
“I didn’t mean to do like this.” I laughed along with him trying to get back my balance. It was harder that I thought and we landed on the ground, legs tangled and faces really close.
I stood besides the swing staring at it dumbly. I should find a place to hide not-oh, how I miss this guy. So sweet, caring and ready to smile only for me.
The rain isn’t stopping and I shiver. It’s cold. Why I’m only wearing jeans, t-shirt and a simple jacket?
Suddenly I stopped to feel raindrops on my face and I looked up. I was under umbrella. I haven’t noticed that someone was here. I turned to that person to probably to mutter ‘thank you’, but my mouth just opens and closes, as I see who that person is.
DongHae... DongHae?
When I was off my first shock, I saw that he was smiling faintly. I reached for the hand that was holding the umbrella and as I touched the warm skin there was no any doubt- he is here.
He said no word and I didn’t speak either, but studied his face. Time hasn’t changed him a lot, only his hairs were longer, face manlier.
Suddenly he breaks into a smile, childishly full of hidden happiness. I see the looks he send to that old swing, as if it’s some kind of treasure.
Could it be--?
“I missed you, you know. I just arrived and decided to walk around before taking my walk back home.” I almost could believe that moment, nothing had changed, that it’s the same as before.
It’s the time that passed which makes all this not so easy and I don’t know anymore what he thinks, but these words give me a hope, and I ask, “You mean that you haven’t forgotten me?” this question sounded so hopeful even in my ears.
I hear no sound coming from his lips as he turns at me as we stands now; face to face, I look in these eyes and for some time feel like drowning in the depth of them. His arms go around my waist and pull me close in a tight hug, not caring if the umbrella is or isn’t covering us anymore. I hear the heart beat, fast and feeling so strong. I smile on his shoulder.
Maybe it isn’t that bad anymore to be out in the rain. He is here to accompany me.
[I cannot wait I'm sure
No need to complicate
Our time is short]
edited 11.09.08