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It's only like 2 weeks until my birthday & I'm still not exactly sure what I'm going to do for it. My parents are going up to my aunt's house in Upstate NY & they invited me to go. They said I could also bring my awesome cousin Megan, who I haven't seen in a while. I think it would be fun, but I was kind of looking forward to going clubbing in NYC or something. Who knows what'll end up happening, I guess I'll just have to wait & see. I still have to get an ID if I want to do anything like that anyway. I hope someone actually takes me to get one, they always say they will, but it never gets done. :P
I took the doctor's suggestions of eating better, but it makes me really unhappy. I'm still just as dizzy & sick as I was when I was barely eating at all. Now I'm starting to gain weight back & it just makes me feel shitty. So fuck what the doctors say, they're just out to make me fat. I'm going back to the tea & cigarette diet starting tomorrow. I don't care if it's unhealthy, so don't lecture me. Eating "better" didn't help me at all, I'm still just as sick, so I'm doing it my way. I wish I could be as thin as those models. They're so lucky & beautiful. Maybe if I stay on the right track I'll be happy again. Mmm bones. :)
Having no money really blows. I have like 25$ in quarters & that's it. I need to find a CoinStar or something. Hopefully for my birthday my family just gives me money, cause that's all I really need. I need cigarettes & to go shopping, so money would be perfect right about now. And fuck getting a job, I'm too lazy for that. Hahah. It's sad, but true. Plus, I can't hold a normal job anyway, I don't sleep at night so my schedule is all messed up. Oh well.
I took the doctor's suggestions of eating better, but it makes me really unhappy. I'm still just as dizzy & sick as I was when I was barely eating at all. Now I'm starting to gain weight back & it just makes me feel shitty. So fuck what the doctors say, they're just out to make me fat. I'm going back to the tea & cigarette diet starting tomorrow. I don't care if it's unhealthy, so don't lecture me. Eating "better" didn't help me at all, I'm still just as sick, so I'm doing it my way. I wish I could be as thin as those models. They're so lucky & beautiful. Maybe if I stay on the right track I'll be happy again. Mmm bones. :)
Having no money really blows. I have like 25$ in quarters & that's it. I need to find a CoinStar or something. Hopefully for my birthday my family just gives me money, cause that's all I really need. I need cigarettes & to go shopping, so money would be perfect right about now. And fuck getting a job, I'm too lazy for that. Hahah. It's sad, but true. Plus, I can't hold a normal job anyway, I don't sleep at night so my schedule is all messed up. Oh well.