Old Entries. New Ideas
So I was reading through some of my journal entries from before I stopped writing and realized that 2004 was a pretty good year for me. I can't really compare it to 2006 because I didn't write then. I wonder what stopped me from writing? Of well it will come to me. I think it will probably take awhile to get back in the groove of writing again but it seems there are advantages to it. Like, for instance, I can see what is going on in my life and improve different aspects of it. I don't even really have to think about it because it just comes naturally. It only took me a couple minutes of reading to realize that currently my social life is seriously lacking these days and I don't seem to have as much money as I used to even though I make more of it. So I thought 'What is different now?' I guess for one is that I pay more than twice the amount of rent I was when I was last living on my own and even more than that when I was living with roomates. That is another thing that is different. No roomates. I look back on those days and I think about how much I complained about them and the big hassle that dealing with everyone else's personal drama entailed but there were positive things like a constantly rotating group of people in and out of my life. Nobody I got too attached to but entertainment at least. My life is different these days. It's lonely but so much more stable. I'm not sure which I like better. I know I seem to like to complain.
Speaking of complaining. I talked to Jen today briefly. She usually doesn't answer my calls or return my texts but today she did return a call. Told me she was going to keep Jake in Boy Scouts but still won't let me see the kids. That sucks big balls. I've been in those kids life for six years now and they have come to look at me as a father figure and she is going to just rip us apart like that and there isn't a goddamn thing I can do about it. Now she said Jake could still go to Boy Scouts but do you think she has taken him? Of course not. She is too damn lazy to do anything for anybody but herself. Well I guess I should just give it a rest and see what developes.
I see that 2004 was a good year for my love life. I almost forgot that I had one of those and can't wait to get back in the swing of things. I kind of already have at a slow pace. I'm seeing this girl in San Rafael occasionally. We have fun together but it doesn't seem like anything serious. I was dating a girl here in town but that petered out fairly quickly. I was thinking of trying to meet women on myspace but I've never had any luck with those social networking sites.
Speaking of complaining. I talked to Jen today briefly. She usually doesn't answer my calls or return my texts but today she did return a call. Told me she was going to keep Jake in Boy Scouts but still won't let me see the kids. That sucks big balls. I've been in those kids life for six years now and they have come to look at me as a father figure and she is going to just rip us apart like that and there isn't a goddamn thing I can do about it. Now she said Jake could still go to Boy Scouts but do you think she has taken him? Of course not. She is too damn lazy to do anything for anybody but herself. Well I guess I should just give it a rest and see what developes.
I see that 2004 was a good year for my love life. I almost forgot that I had one of those and can't wait to get back in the swing of things. I kind of already have at a slow pace. I'm seeing this girl in San Rafael occasionally. We have fun together but it doesn't seem like anything serious. I was dating a girl here in town but that petered out fairly quickly. I was thinking of trying to meet women on myspace but I've never had any luck with those social networking sites.