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I was in one lousy mood at work last night. I didn't feel like dealing with my loons at all and found myself getting short with them. I like to think that intelligence is independant from mental illness but the truth is that most of the patients we have are pretty damn stupid and while this usually doesn't bother me last night I about popped a gasket when I told a patient to look on the board to find out who her mental health worker was and she looked on the wrong wall and said,"brother I still don't see who my worker is." I also didn't have the patience to deal with dipshit Don last night so I prettymuch stopped talking to him halfway through the shift. At one point I wanted to lay my head down for a few minutes because I wasn't feeling well at all last night so I asked him if he could stay alert for fifteen minutes or so while I caught a catnap. He said,"Sure no problem," but he had his feet up on the desk and his eyes closed while saying it so I just continued reading my book. HE said,"Go ahead, I'll keep an eye out." Unfortunately his eyes were still closed so I told him,"I'm sorry but I just don't trust you'll stay awake." Yes, I am an asshole. Later on after the day shift arrived he butted in on a conversation I was having with another co-worker wondering what we were talking about. I told him not to worry about it, we were using big words and I didn't have the time to explain them to him. I really need to find out what is the root of my hostility towards him so I could deal with it instead of insulting him all the time.
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Jake is sitting here playing Unreal Tournament and really enjoying himself. He's improving so fast I can hardly believe it. He also plays Renegade passably and is learning Age of Empires though he still needs more practice with that one before I'll play him.