Damn guys
Well life sucks as normal, I have been wasting my life away waiting for the love of my life to come back to me. No one can make me has happy as he could and it makes me want to cry knowing that i'll probably never have another chance. I'm a big screw up when it comes to relationships, i've never been able to do anything right its crazy. I'm addicted to the worse thing in the world to be addicted to and i have no clue how to help myself. I guess i'll just have to go cold turkey. Who knows maybe one day it'll kill, i'll od, and then i won't have to worry about it anymore. I don't think i'll ever get that lucky.