my turn to ramble
anonymous
January 12 2004, 21:22:10 UTC
first i would like to say im glad you had a good weekend im glad you finally feel like your really at home and im glad you dont look at all of this as bad times cuz we did have a lot of good times and i didnt want you to regret any of this its good to travel and you got to see a lot when you were here i still wish we had went to the beach too bad im sure youll have your chance anyway and its not like you dont see enough beach anyway... also i never thought you would go down there and "start an i hate susy club" thats not what i meant at all i just figured jen and chrissy and others of course are your best friends so naturally you would talk to them and naturally theyd be curious as to why you came home so suddenly and naturally once you told them how it all plays out.. well lets face it i dont come out looking so good and naturally i would be jusdged for all this and i wasnt feeling sorry for myself i was just trying to see how things stand and if they werent so good then i accept that and dont blame you or them or anyone they were your friends first and remain loyal to you in the end but whatever im just saying its all good and im glad in a way were mutually happy now if you understand that sentence means at all i am a little sad on how you see the situation so ill try to explain a little i never lied to you ive been unhappy yes for a minute but i didnt go aroung telling people i want to break up with you or something ive mentioned that i dont think this is working but i wasnt sure what to do about it come on you basically just told me you felt the same way so you must understand i knew that to break up with you meant you going home and just the end of everything that was a big decision to come to so yeah im a big pussy but im not a liar or i wasnt trying to be #2 i know you dont wanna hear this but... i really really liked lance and i actually tried to avoid him for a minute because of it i didnt want to confuse the situation which is exactly what happened he just kept on coming over and insisting on hanging out so in the end i couldnt say no so i realize how it looks but i think that we are gonna be really happy together cuz i dont think hes gross at all #3 yes i did think you were bitter i mean you were somewhat of a bitch to me but the night before you left id like to think we had a good time and got along better than we had been there was just so much tension you know and then i was gonna come say bye but i woke up a little after one and ran home to see if i could catch you barefoot even but you were gone and im sorry i missed you but i did get you christmas presents and that says i care and unlike some people i didnt try to fuck you over for anything whats yours is yours and i was willing to stick to everything we agreed to #3 except for one thing: i accidentally stole fear and loathing i took it that night and i was going to put it back i promise i was but there was never a chance and time sort of just flew but ill bring that to you along with averything else that is rightfully yours including cococola glasses spongebob minimugs your shirt and other things that i may find in the future and maybe something that you can think of that you might want that we can agree on if... #4 I WANT MY BONG!!!
Re: my turn to rambletorirulz420January 12 2004, 23:22:12 UTC
okay first of all there was two #3's. just so you know. you are a liar i dont care what you say...you knew what was going to happen with lance and you told me it wouldnt okay you said at least not for a while because it would be to awkward. well i thought a while was longer than a week, or however long. so theres something you lied about right there, and even so you should have been way more respectful as to how i would feel. but your selfish in ways and ive always known that. heres something you should know, nothing you say is going to rub me the wrong way say whatever about you and lance, i dont care susy. i only cared when it was in my face yknow. and another thing you lied about was you said you had told nobody how you felt...you lied. trisha and you had had a talk and well you knew what you wanted then and that was like 5 months ago. but you know what its okay now, whatever, its over yknow so we dont even need to be like well you did this and this. i was just saying that things i heard here and there and things you did just made my point of view about you different. you let me down so bad and ive never had to deal with someone who doesnt care how things might make other people feel like shit. and as for jenn and chris neither one of them actually know, why do i want to tell a horrible story about something and someone that at one point i loved. maybe that doesnt make sense to anyone but its like the same thing that happened with jaime. i never told anyone why we actually broke up, yeah people knew she cheated on me but that was not why we broke up. i didnt want people to think bad about her because even though what she did sucked ass i still have mad respect for her. and thats how i feel about the washington situation even though it sucked nuts and yeah you werent exactly the ex of the year i still respect you and care enough about you to not want to hear people say "susy, that bitch." its just how i feel. and as for the bong...its at chris' and it will stay there. i dont think anything you have to offer will make me take it from that house. just so you know material things dont mean shit to me. the bong was the triplets bong. and there was two out of three there and now it only seems right that its here cause theres two out of three here. about when i left if the table was turned and you were leaving and i knew it was prolly the last time id see you i would had made sure i was there. and yes it did hurt, i was like fuck you too, which in turn made it so easy to take the bong. christmas presents dont make up for making someone feel like shit susy cmon thats a fucking retarded thing to say even for you. and as for me acting like a bitch, so did you, you were ridiculously pissed off at me. saying shit like i did something to you but you couldnt tell me what...it makes me laugh. if that made you feel better about the situation then good for you. in all actuality if you would had made that whole situation just a little less ridiculous then i prolly wouldnt had left. the way you were acting and the things you said to other people were like two different things and i didnt understand nor did i want to try. if i wanted to i could have really fucked you, just by making a phone call. but i didnt. the only thing i regret is that i never told you what was really on my mind before and after we broke up. i really dont want anything from that house except my cat and well i cant have him. so everything else means nothing unless...you find my necklace but i actually think someone took it because i knew where it was one day and then it was gone. well anyway im actually kind of tired about talking about this theres no reason for it, it cant fix anything and it wont help anything. so have a nice day or night or whatever it is when you read this, maybe next time we can ramble about something different.
im glad you finally feel like your really at home
and im glad you dont look at all of this as bad times
cuz we did have a lot of good times
and i didnt want you to regret any of this
its good to travel and you got to see a lot when you were here
i still wish we had went to the beach
too bad
im sure youll have your chance anyway
and its not like you dont see enough beach anyway...
also
i never thought you would go down there and
"start an i hate susy club"
thats not what i meant at all
i just figured jen and chrissy
and others of course
are your best friends
so naturally you would talk to them
and naturally theyd be curious as to why you came home so suddenly
and naturally once you told them how it all plays out..
well lets face it
i dont come out looking so good
and naturally i would be jusdged for all this
and i wasnt feeling sorry for myself
i was just trying to see how things stand
and if they werent so good then i accept that
and dont blame you or them or anyone
they were your friends first
and remain loyal to you in the end
but whatever
im just saying its all good
and im glad in a way were mutually happy now
if you understand that sentence means at all
i am a little sad on how you see the situation
so ill try to explain a little
i never lied to you
ive been unhappy yes for a minute
but i didnt go aroung telling people i want to break up with you or something
ive mentioned that i dont think this is working
but i wasnt sure what to do about it
come on you basically just told me you felt the same way
so you must understand
i knew that to break up with you meant you going home
and just the end
of everything
that was a big decision to come to
so yeah im a big pussy
but im not a liar
or i wasnt trying to be
#2 i know you dont wanna hear this but...
i really really liked lance
and i actually tried to avoid him for a minute because of it
i didnt want to confuse the situation
which is exactly what happened
he just kept on coming over
and insisting on hanging out
so in the end i couldnt say no
so i realize how it looks
but i think that we are gonna be really happy together
cuz i dont think hes gross at all
#3 yes i did think you were bitter
i mean you were somewhat of a bitch to me
but the night before you left
id like to think we had a good time
and got along better than we had been
there was just so much tension you know
and then i was gonna come say bye
but i woke up a little after one and ran home to see if i could catch you
barefoot even
but you were gone
and im sorry i missed you
but i did get you christmas presents
and that says i care
and unlike some people
i didnt try to fuck you over for anything
whats yours is yours
and i was willing to stick to everything we agreed to
#3 except for one thing:
i accidentally stole fear and loathing
i took it that night
and i was going to put it back
i promise i was
but there was never a chance and time sort of just flew
but ill bring that to you
along with averything else that is rightfully yours
including cococola glasses
spongebob minimugs
your shirt and other things that i may find in the future
and maybe something that you can think of that you might want that we can agree on
if...
#4 I WANT MY BONG!!!
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you are a liar i dont care what you say...you knew what was going to happen with lance and you told me it wouldnt okay you said at least not for a while because it would be to awkward. well i thought a while was longer than a week, or however long. so theres something you lied about right there, and even so you should have been way more respectful as to how i would feel. but your selfish in ways and ive always known that. heres something you should know, nothing you say is going to rub me the wrong way say whatever about you and lance, i dont care susy. i only cared when it was in my face yknow. and another thing you lied about was you said you had told nobody how you felt...you lied. trisha and you had had a talk and well you knew what you wanted then and that was like 5 months ago. but you know what its okay now, whatever, its over yknow so we dont even need to be like well you did this and this. i was just saying that things i heard here and there and things you did just made my point of view about you different. you let me down so bad and ive never had to deal with someone who doesnt care how things might make other people feel like shit. and as for jenn and chris neither one of them actually know, why do i want to tell a horrible story about something and someone that at one point i loved. maybe that doesnt make sense to anyone but its like the same thing that happened with jaime. i never told anyone why we actually broke up, yeah people knew she cheated on me but that was not why we broke up. i didnt want people to think bad about her because even though what she did sucked ass i still have mad respect for her. and thats how i feel about the washington situation even though it sucked nuts and yeah you werent exactly the ex of the year i still respect you and care enough about you to not want to hear people say "susy, that bitch." its just how i feel. and as for the bong...its at chris' and it will stay there. i dont think anything you have to offer will make me take it from that house. just so you know material things dont mean shit to me. the bong was the triplets bong. and there was two out of three there and now it only seems right that its here cause theres two out of three here. about when i left if the table was turned and you were leaving and i knew it was prolly the last time id see you i would had made sure i was there. and yes it did hurt, i was like fuck you too, which in turn made it so easy to take the bong. christmas presents dont make up for making someone feel like shit susy cmon thats a fucking retarded thing to say even for you. and as for me acting like a bitch, so did you, you were ridiculously pissed off at me. saying shit like i did something to you but you couldnt tell me what...it makes me laugh. if that made you feel better about the situation then good for you. in all actuality if you would had made that whole situation just a little less ridiculous then i prolly wouldnt had left. the way you were acting and the things you said to other people were like two different things and i didnt understand nor did i want to try. if i wanted to i could have really fucked you, just by making a phone call. but i didnt. the only thing i regret is that i never told you what was really on my mind before and after we broke up. i really dont want anything from that house except my cat and well i cant have him. so everything else means nothing unless...you find my necklace but i actually think someone took it because i knew where it was one day and then it was gone. well anyway im actually kind of tired about talking about this theres no reason for it, it cant fix anything and it wont help anything. so have a nice day or night or whatever it is when you read this, maybe next time we can ramble about something different.
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