Through The Night/M/Nick&DavidH
Title: Through The Night
Rating: Mature
Summary: "And I know that even if we have this huge nasty fight, I'll still come crawling back to you because I need you that much."
Pairing: Nick Jonas/David Henrie
Warnings: Slash, hXc buttsecks, bad words, and (hopefully) cute fluffyness that may cause gagging
Author Notes: Written for Tasha cause she's sick and deserves this. Any typos are my mistake cause I didn't proofread this DDD: SO I'M SORRY IF THIS SUCKS CAUSE I GOT REALLY TIRED TOWARDS THE END
I'm excited... No, I take that back, I'm fucking ecstatic. Wanna know why? Well, I'm just going to tell you: Today is the day Nick's finally coming home. Nick, my boyfriend that I haven't seen in months and the most amazing person ever and just - Holy crap I can't wait until he texts me saying that he's on his way and that within a mere matter of minutes he'll be back in arms. Right where he belongs.
So as of right now, I'm sitting on my couch watching TV and I'm so fidgety with my phone clutched in my hand, just waiting for it to go off. I keep glancing down at it and I don't even know what's on TV 'cause I'm just so anxious. Now, I'm not some clingy boyfriend but I haven't seen Nick in about five months and I haven't even talked to him for about a week and a half, which is way too long for my liking.
I miss hearing his voice. I miss hearing him laugh. I miss hearing him say 'I miss you'. I miss hearing him fight with Joe 'cause he gets all worked up and then his voice cracks I think it's the cutest thing in the whole wide world. I miss hearing him sigh. I miss him. A lot. I frown as I think about this and when my phone vibrates I nearly have a heart attack out of excitement even though I don't know who it's from just yet. It's from my mom, what the fuck.
I sighed, pursing my lips and texted her back quickly. And when I saw the whole '1 New Message!' thing I bit back a grin but then let out a sigh of relief when I saw it was from Nick and it said: "Hello. I just left :)" I bit my lip and turned the TV off and got up. I replied back to him, "Finally" and then rushed through the house looking for things to clean up because even though Nick doesn't mind clutter, I still want my house to look good for him.
I was in my room shoving some stray clothes into drawers when the doorbell rang. My eyes widened for a moment and I hurriedly shoved the rest of the clothes away and practically tripped and fell down the stairs in my attempt to get to door as fast a possible. I flung the door open and grinned when I saw Nick, standing there being all kinds of cute. And then when he does that adorable little smile I nearly swoon 'cause I mean, come on.
"Hi..." he said, smiling wider at me.
I didn't say anything, I just reached out and when I felt his body press up against mine and his arms wrap tight around my back, I felt all happy and tingly to finally have him back. I wrapped my arms around his lower back and held him close, nuzzling my face against the side of his neck.
"I've missed you so much," I said and it was muffled because the last thing I wanted to do was move away from Nick so I could speak clearly.
I felt him smile, "I've missed you too. A lot," he replied; God, his voice was the best voice ever. I leaned back to look at him and I pressed a kiss to his lips, tightening my arms around him so that he was pressed closer against me. Oh, and did I mention just how much I missed being with him? Yeah, he had that vow thingy and all but he said that he highly doubted that he would be with anyone else so... he just kinda kicked it off a cliff or something.
He was... amazing in bed. Yeah and I'm not just saying that because I'm dating him and most likely head over heels in love with him but it's true. I mean, okay, we've only done it once but Good lord he was good for his first time. He's got this... needy, minx side to him that's just above and beyond the hottest thing ever. Because when Nick Jonas tells you to "Fuck me good," yeah, like I'm going to say no to that.
But when Nick whimpers and I realize that, hey, we're in my room and half naked - when the hell did that happen - I pull away because while kissing Nick is nice, I need to be alive to do so. My hands go to his pants and the second they're gone he turns us around and shoves me down on the bed, staring down at me with this little smirk showing. He leans down, pressing kisses to my chest, down to my stomach and then my pants are gone and I'm naked. I need to pay more attention as to what's going on.
Nick doesn't say anything but instead crawls onto the bed and straddles my thighs. He's looking down at me and his warm hands are pressed against my chest and my dick is pressing up against the back of his ass.
"David, I'm going to ride you and fuck myself so good that I can't even remember my own name. And then, I want you to come all over my chest, okay?" He said, his eyebrows were raised a little and I nearly moaned at how freaking dirty he could be. I nodded, not sure if I could speak properly. He leaned down and kissed me briefly before he moved down so that he was face to, well, face to dick with me.
He stared at it for a moment before he wrapped his hand around the base and licked it from bottom to top where he took the head in his mouth and sucked. I moaned and arched my back a little at how it felt, my hands found their way to his shoulders and his found their way to my hips. With good reason, too. I mean, I wouldn't wanna die from choking on penis. Could you imagine the headline? "DISNEY STAR: DEATH BY DICK" Yeah, not so much.
I licked my lips and let out a shaky breath when he slid his mouth further down my dick and sucked harder. He had to have practiced on something - not someone, that would just be awful - because this is way too good to be his first time. But that just shows what I know, seeing as how he was mind-blowing his first time having full on sex.
"Nick... fuck," I nearly whimpered, my toes curled as did my fingers and my eyes slid shut. I felt his hands press hard against my hips when I started to thrust forward. I would have to apologize for that later.
He was doing this amazing thing where he was sucking but at the same time he was like, rubbing his tongue against the bottom of my dick when he pulled away. I wanted to punch him. I mean, who leaves when they're doing someone like that? But I didn't do such a thing because seconds later he was hovering above me.
He looked up at him, my hands went to his arms which were locked at the elbows as he leaned against his hands which were pressed against my chest. He was looking down, lowering himself inch my inch until the head of my dick was pressed against his anus. He looked up at me and gave a tiny little smile before he suddenly just kinda let himself drop onto me and we both moaned.
Once he was fully seated, his short - but fuck my nuts they were sharp - nails were digging into the skin on my chest and I sucked in a breath. My hands went to his hips and I held on to him like my life depended on it. He leaned over me and gripped the headboard, using it as leverage to raise himself up and then drop back down, moaning.
"Mnh, David..." he said and it went straight to my cock, I pushed up slightly, groaning at how tight he was.
He really was a man of his word because moments later he was all sweaty and moaning and writhing on top of me fucking himself senseless. He was a mess. His chest was flushed and his voice was all high pitched and his sweaty hands grabbed at me blindly, but I wasn't much better.
I hardly had any idea that I was moaning and cursing like sailor because it felt like I had died and gone to 'Sex With Your Boyfriend' heaven and if this is what being dead was like, I was killing myself ASAP. But I managed to open my eyes and see the glorious sight above me: Nick Jonas, sweaty and writhing and moaning and gasping like some cheap whore on top of me as he fucks himself stupid.
Suddenly I remember what he had said earlier and I sat up, pushing him off and away from me so that he was on his back. I quickly got up on my knees and wrapped a calloused hand around my dick and I jacked myself off as he did the same, staring up at me all intensely.
I licked my lips and moaned his name as I came on his chest and stomach. He whined and arched his back and came along with me. I sighed heavily and leaned forward so that my hands were on either side of Nick's shoulders. He had an arm draped across his eyes and his lips were parted as he breathed heavily, calming himself down. I sighed once more and went to go lay beside him, wrapping my arms around his waist and pulling him close.
He moved the arm over his eyes to reach for his shirt where he wiped off his stomach and then tossed it aside. He turned to face me and cuddled up close to me, "Well then... I'm glad to be back," he said quietly, laughing a little.
I smiled down at him and nodding, humming quietly in agreement. I felt tired but I really wanted to say something before we both passed out 'cause my room was all dark and cool and it was the middle of summer so this was amazing compared to the outside. I sat up suddenly, stretching and kind of forcing myself awake and then I looked down at Nick and saw him watching me.
"Nick... I have something I want to tell you."
He sat up, eye level with me and cocked his head to side a little, "Is there something wrong?"
I shook my head, "No. Well..." I glanced at him because I had been staring at my hands which were in my lap. What? I was nervous... I bit my lip, "Okay so, you know that you have this huge part in my life and just, every day spent with you is like the best ever. You really are everything I could ever want in a guy - anybody and just... Nick, I love you. So much. Just, I'm head over heels in love with you and I can just hope with all I am that you feel the same way because if you didn't I'd cry."
I finished my spiel with a sigh and I was looking at him, hoping that my sincerity was showing. He had this look on his face that was like a mixture of disbelief, happiness, and shock. I was starting to worry and I could feel that uncomfortable hot knot forming in the back of my throat but it quickly dissipated when he smiled and took a hold of my hands.
"Oh, David, of course I feel the same way..! I love you too," he nearly gushed and he leaned forward to hug me. I smiled and pulled him into my lap where his legs automatically went on either side of me and he clung to me like a monkey of sorts.
His head rested against my chest and I pressed a kiss against his curls and I ran a hand through his hair. I yawned suddenly I moved us so that we were on our sides, laying down and I heard Nick chuckled quietly. He said he was tired and I said that we should sleep and that's just what we did.
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"David..! St-stop!" Nick gasped out, feebly trying to push me away as he writhed underneath me. I tickled him mercilessly, laughing at how his voice cracked in spots. He finally got a hold of my wrists and ripped my hands away, fake glaring at me.
"You are so paying for that, later," he threatened, trying to look serious but I could see the sides of his mouth twitch with an effort to keep a straight face.
I smiled and kissed him, taking advantage of his loosened grip to cup his face. The past six months had gone by so fast, we had officially been together a year and two months. Yeah, beat that. Of course we had our fights but in the end I loved him more than anyone or anything and from what I could tell, he felt the same way.
I pulled away with a soft smack and wrapped my arms around his waist, tugging him towards me so that we were sitting close together against the couch. Nick looked up at me and smiled his cute little smile at me.
"I love you," he said quietly.
"I love you, too," I replied, pulling him closer and kissing the top of his head. I played with his long, nimble fingers and just let thoughts about our relationship float through my mind. It was pretty amazing how the media didn't even like, suspect us - but then again, I'd be more than shocked if they did. I was thinking about the first I ever told Nick I loved him when he said my name.
"David..."
"Hm?" I looked at him but frowned when he looked upset, "What's wrong?"
Nick frowned, "I'm worried that you'll leave me..." he admitted quietly and I could've sworn my heart broke a little because seeing Nick all sad was just not right.
"Aw, baby, no. I'd never leave you. Nick - look at me," he looked at me, his pretty brown eyes filled with worry as he bit his lip, "As far as I'm concerned, I am never, ever going to leave you, I don't care who says I need to. You mean too much to me to do such a thing, understand?"
Nick nodded, "Yeah... but I mean, what if you meet someone that's like, way better looking than me and isn't all clingy and emotional..?"
I raised my eyebrows in disbelief. Better looking than Nick? Not even possible. "Nick..! How can you think that? You are the most attractive man I've ever seen and yeah you have your moments but it's cute and it's nice to not date a caveman with two emotions."
Nick smiled and laughed quietly, "If you say so..." he pursed his lips and hugged me.
I frowned, "Nick, just remember that whenever you feel this way - you can always read that letter I wrote for you back at our year anniversary."
Nick looked up at me and smiled, "I do... and it helps when you're not around, really."
I smiled and held him close, knowing that I would never ever let him go. I thought back to the letter I had written and surprisingly remembered it almost word for word:
Nick Jonas!
It's been a whole year since we first started dating. Can you believe it because I know I'm still having trouble believing it. Well, anyway, I decided to write this because even though, chances are, I'll be saying something similar to this later tonight, I still think I should write it down just in case you need a little reassurance when I'm not around to tell you how amazing you are. But you truly are amazing. You have the cutest smile ever, gorgeous eyes and hair, your little mole freckle thingys are so cute and one day, I'm going to count them all. You're the nicest, most caring, thoughtful, selfless, sweetest person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and I really feel like I could spend the rest of my life with you just cause you're that awesome. I know we'll have our fights but just know that, no matter what I say, I don't mean it. No matter how much it may seem like I mean it, I really don't. And I know that even if we have this huge nasty fight, I'll still come crawling back to you because I need you that much. I don't think I could live without you, Nick. You are pretty much the reason why I wake up, and when I sleep, I dream about you a lot. I dream about how you are the biggest cuddlebug (yeah, I said it, stfu you know you like it) I know but I wouldn't have it any other way. I dream about how I think that we're going to live together in like, Colorado or something and have a dog and when I come home to you or you come home to me it'll make me smile and know that I wouldn't trade it for anything in the whole wide world because all I could ever want is you to be happy and I hope that you get that with me. If you don't, then no matter how much it'll break my heart, I'll do so because if it makes you happy, then it's what I want for you. But I should probably wrap this up because it's 11:11 (Make a wish!) and I'm really tired and this could probably go on forever, but I think you get the point.
LOVELOVELOVECAUSEILOVEYOUSOMUCH,
David
Rating: Mature
Summary: "And I know that even if we have this huge nasty fight, I'll still come crawling back to you because I need you that much."
Pairing: Nick Jonas/David Henrie
Warnings: Slash, hXc buttsecks, bad words, and (hopefully) cute fluffyness that may cause gagging
Author Notes: Written for Tasha cause she's sick and deserves this. Any typos are my mistake cause I didn't proofread this DDD: SO I'M SORRY IF THIS SUCKS CAUSE I GOT REALLY TIRED TOWARDS THE END
I'm excited... No, I take that back, I'm fucking ecstatic. Wanna know why? Well, I'm just going to tell you: Today is the day Nick's finally coming home. Nick, my boyfriend that I haven't seen in months and the most amazing person ever and just - Holy crap I can't wait until he texts me saying that he's on his way and that within a mere matter of minutes he'll be back in arms. Right where he belongs.
So as of right now, I'm sitting on my couch watching TV and I'm so fidgety with my phone clutched in my hand, just waiting for it to go off. I keep glancing down at it and I don't even know what's on TV 'cause I'm just so anxious. Now, I'm not some clingy boyfriend but I haven't seen Nick in about five months and I haven't even talked to him for about a week and a half, which is way too long for my liking.
I miss hearing his voice. I miss hearing him laugh. I miss hearing him say 'I miss you'. I miss hearing him fight with Joe 'cause he gets all worked up and then his voice cracks I think it's the cutest thing in the whole wide world. I miss hearing him sigh. I miss him. A lot. I frown as I think about this and when my phone vibrates I nearly have a heart attack out of excitement even though I don't know who it's from just yet. It's from my mom, what the fuck.
I sighed, pursing my lips and texted her back quickly. And when I saw the whole '1 New Message!' thing I bit back a grin but then let out a sigh of relief when I saw it was from Nick and it said: "Hello. I just left :)" I bit my lip and turned the TV off and got up. I replied back to him, "Finally" and then rushed through the house looking for things to clean up because even though Nick doesn't mind clutter, I still want my house to look good for him.
I was in my room shoving some stray clothes into drawers when the doorbell rang. My eyes widened for a moment and I hurriedly shoved the rest of the clothes away and practically tripped and fell down the stairs in my attempt to get to door as fast a possible. I flung the door open and grinned when I saw Nick, standing there being all kinds of cute. And then when he does that adorable little smile I nearly swoon 'cause I mean, come on.
"Hi..." he said, smiling wider at me.
I didn't say anything, I just reached out and when I felt his body press up against mine and his arms wrap tight around my back, I felt all happy and tingly to finally have him back. I wrapped my arms around his lower back and held him close, nuzzling my face against the side of his neck.
"I've missed you so much," I said and it was muffled because the last thing I wanted to do was move away from Nick so I could speak clearly.
I felt him smile, "I've missed you too. A lot," he replied; God, his voice was the best voice ever. I leaned back to look at him and I pressed a kiss to his lips, tightening my arms around him so that he was pressed closer against me. Oh, and did I mention just how much I missed being with him? Yeah, he had that vow thingy and all but he said that he highly doubted that he would be with anyone else so... he just kinda kicked it off a cliff or something.
He was... amazing in bed. Yeah and I'm not just saying that because I'm dating him and most likely head over heels in love with him but it's true. I mean, okay, we've only done it once but Good lord he was good for his first time. He's got this... needy, minx side to him that's just above and beyond the hottest thing ever. Because when Nick Jonas tells you to "Fuck me good," yeah, like I'm going to say no to that.
But when Nick whimpers and I realize that, hey, we're in my room and half naked - when the hell did that happen - I pull away because while kissing Nick is nice, I need to be alive to do so. My hands go to his pants and the second they're gone he turns us around and shoves me down on the bed, staring down at me with this little smirk showing. He leans down, pressing kisses to my chest, down to my stomach and then my pants are gone and I'm naked. I need to pay more attention as to what's going on.
Nick doesn't say anything but instead crawls onto the bed and straddles my thighs. He's looking down at me and his warm hands are pressed against my chest and my dick is pressing up against the back of his ass.
"David, I'm going to ride you and fuck myself so good that I can't even remember my own name. And then, I want you to come all over my chest, okay?" He said, his eyebrows were raised a little and I nearly moaned at how freaking dirty he could be. I nodded, not sure if I could speak properly. He leaned down and kissed me briefly before he moved down so that he was face to, well, face to dick with me.
He stared at it for a moment before he wrapped his hand around the base and licked it from bottom to top where he took the head in his mouth and sucked. I moaned and arched my back a little at how it felt, my hands found their way to his shoulders and his found their way to my hips. With good reason, too. I mean, I wouldn't wanna die from choking on penis. Could you imagine the headline? "DISNEY STAR: DEATH BY DICK" Yeah, not so much.
I licked my lips and let out a shaky breath when he slid his mouth further down my dick and sucked harder. He had to have practiced on something - not someone, that would just be awful - because this is way too good to be his first time. But that just shows what I know, seeing as how he was mind-blowing his first time having full on sex.
"Nick... fuck," I nearly whimpered, my toes curled as did my fingers and my eyes slid shut. I felt his hands press hard against my hips when I started to thrust forward. I would have to apologize for that later.
He was doing this amazing thing where he was sucking but at the same time he was like, rubbing his tongue against the bottom of my dick when he pulled away. I wanted to punch him. I mean, who leaves when they're doing someone like that? But I didn't do such a thing because seconds later he was hovering above me.
He looked up at him, my hands went to his arms which were locked at the elbows as he leaned against his hands which were pressed against my chest. He was looking down, lowering himself inch my inch until the head of my dick was pressed against his anus. He looked up at me and gave a tiny little smile before he suddenly just kinda let himself drop onto me and we both moaned.
Once he was fully seated, his short - but fuck my nuts they were sharp - nails were digging into the skin on my chest and I sucked in a breath. My hands went to his hips and I held on to him like my life depended on it. He leaned over me and gripped the headboard, using it as leverage to raise himself up and then drop back down, moaning.
"Mnh, David..." he said and it went straight to my cock, I pushed up slightly, groaning at how tight he was.
He really was a man of his word because moments later he was all sweaty and moaning and writhing on top of me fucking himself senseless. He was a mess. His chest was flushed and his voice was all high pitched and his sweaty hands grabbed at me blindly, but I wasn't much better.
I hardly had any idea that I was moaning and cursing like sailor because it felt like I had died and gone to 'Sex With Your Boyfriend' heaven and if this is what being dead was like, I was killing myself ASAP. But I managed to open my eyes and see the glorious sight above me: Nick Jonas, sweaty and writhing and moaning and gasping like some cheap whore on top of me as he fucks himself stupid.
Suddenly I remember what he had said earlier and I sat up, pushing him off and away from me so that he was on his back. I quickly got up on my knees and wrapped a calloused hand around my dick and I jacked myself off as he did the same, staring up at me all intensely.
I licked my lips and moaned his name as I came on his chest and stomach. He whined and arched his back and came along with me. I sighed heavily and leaned forward so that my hands were on either side of Nick's shoulders. He had an arm draped across his eyes and his lips were parted as he breathed heavily, calming himself down. I sighed once more and went to go lay beside him, wrapping my arms around his waist and pulling him close.
He moved the arm over his eyes to reach for his shirt where he wiped off his stomach and then tossed it aside. He turned to face me and cuddled up close to me, "Well then... I'm glad to be back," he said quietly, laughing a little.
I smiled down at him and nodding, humming quietly in agreement. I felt tired but I really wanted to say something before we both passed out 'cause my room was all dark and cool and it was the middle of summer so this was amazing compared to the outside. I sat up suddenly, stretching and kind of forcing myself awake and then I looked down at Nick and saw him watching me.
"Nick... I have something I want to tell you."
He sat up, eye level with me and cocked his head to side a little, "Is there something wrong?"
I shook my head, "No. Well..." I glanced at him because I had been staring at my hands which were in my lap. What? I was nervous... I bit my lip, "Okay so, you know that you have this huge part in my life and just, every day spent with you is like the best ever. You really are everything I could ever want in a guy - anybody and just... Nick, I love you. So much. Just, I'm head over heels in love with you and I can just hope with all I am that you feel the same way because if you didn't I'd cry."
I finished my spiel with a sigh and I was looking at him, hoping that my sincerity was showing. He had this look on his face that was like a mixture of disbelief, happiness, and shock. I was starting to worry and I could feel that uncomfortable hot knot forming in the back of my throat but it quickly dissipated when he smiled and took a hold of my hands.
"Oh, David, of course I feel the same way..! I love you too," he nearly gushed and he leaned forward to hug me. I smiled and pulled him into my lap where his legs automatically went on either side of me and he clung to me like a monkey of sorts.
His head rested against my chest and I pressed a kiss against his curls and I ran a hand through his hair. I yawned suddenly I moved us so that we were on our sides, laying down and I heard Nick chuckled quietly. He said he was tired and I said that we should sleep and that's just what we did.
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"David..! St-stop!" Nick gasped out, feebly trying to push me away as he writhed underneath me. I tickled him mercilessly, laughing at how his voice cracked in spots. He finally got a hold of my wrists and ripped my hands away, fake glaring at me.
"You are so paying for that, later," he threatened, trying to look serious but I could see the sides of his mouth twitch with an effort to keep a straight face.
I smiled and kissed him, taking advantage of his loosened grip to cup his face. The past six months had gone by so fast, we had officially been together a year and two months. Yeah, beat that. Of course we had our fights but in the end I loved him more than anyone or anything and from what I could tell, he felt the same way.
I pulled away with a soft smack and wrapped my arms around his waist, tugging him towards me so that we were sitting close together against the couch. Nick looked up at me and smiled his cute little smile at me.
"I love you," he said quietly.
"I love you, too," I replied, pulling him closer and kissing the top of his head. I played with his long, nimble fingers and just let thoughts about our relationship float through my mind. It was pretty amazing how the media didn't even like, suspect us - but then again, I'd be more than shocked if they did. I was thinking about the first I ever told Nick I loved him when he said my name.
"David..."
"Hm?" I looked at him but frowned when he looked upset, "What's wrong?"
Nick frowned, "I'm worried that you'll leave me..." he admitted quietly and I could've sworn my heart broke a little because seeing Nick all sad was just not right.
"Aw, baby, no. I'd never leave you. Nick - look at me," he looked at me, his pretty brown eyes filled with worry as he bit his lip, "As far as I'm concerned, I am never, ever going to leave you, I don't care who says I need to. You mean too much to me to do such a thing, understand?"
Nick nodded, "Yeah... but I mean, what if you meet someone that's like, way better looking than me and isn't all clingy and emotional..?"
I raised my eyebrows in disbelief. Better looking than Nick? Not even possible. "Nick..! How can you think that? You are the most attractive man I've ever seen and yeah you have your moments but it's cute and it's nice to not date a caveman with two emotions."
Nick smiled and laughed quietly, "If you say so..." he pursed his lips and hugged me.
I frowned, "Nick, just remember that whenever you feel this way - you can always read that letter I wrote for you back at our year anniversary."
Nick looked up at me and smiled, "I do... and it helps when you're not around, really."
I smiled and held him close, knowing that I would never ever let him go. I thought back to the letter I had written and surprisingly remembered it almost word for word:
Nick Jonas!
It's been a whole year since we first started dating. Can you believe it because I know I'm still having trouble believing it. Well, anyway, I decided to write this because even though, chances are, I'll be saying something similar to this later tonight, I still think I should write it down just in case you need a little reassurance when I'm not around to tell you how amazing you are. But you truly are amazing. You have the cutest smile ever, gorgeous eyes and hair, your little mole freckle thingys are so cute and one day, I'm going to count them all. You're the nicest, most caring, thoughtful, selfless, sweetest person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and I really feel like I could spend the rest of my life with you just cause you're that awesome. I know we'll have our fights but just know that, no matter what I say, I don't mean it. No matter how much it may seem like I mean it, I really don't. And I know that even if we have this huge nasty fight, I'll still come crawling back to you because I need you that much. I don't think I could live without you, Nick. You are pretty much the reason why I wake up, and when I sleep, I dream about you a lot. I dream about how you are the biggest cuddlebug (yeah, I said it, stfu you know you like it) I know but I wouldn't have it any other way. I dream about how I think that we're going to live together in like, Colorado or something and have a dog and when I come home to you or you come home to me it'll make me smile and know that I wouldn't trade it for anything in the whole wide world because all I could ever want is you to be happy and I hope that you get that with me. If you don't, then no matter how much it'll break my heart, I'll do so because if it makes you happy, then it's what I want for you. But I should probably wrap this up because it's 11:11 (Make a wish!) and I'm really tired and this could probably go on forever, but I think you get the point.
LOVELOVELOVECAUSEILOVEYOUSOMUCH,
David