used and confused
it has been a few again. i've got some money saved, yet my living arrangements remain the same. one of these days i'm just gonna find myself a one bdr. i hate to say it, but i think muncie is looking the most convenient. i dunno w bsu tho... but i have a friend who will be back in aug (living in the dorms, but still... i'd have an avenue for socialization lol). i'm lonely. and where do you meet boys anyhow. atown is barren.
and obviously not myspace. found one, screwed up royally... he's got a fucking gf. i am just too old for drama. i think all the normal guys are taken and or living out of the country. i really started to like this guy too. i mean, we clicked. he plays guitar, loves music. great kisser. funny. antigreen, but yet not completely. i really don't get it. do i have a kick me sign on my heart?
i've just been so disappointed lately. beaklets where are you? no offense, but i have had virtually no support from the friends. nicole is acting shady. nobs is busy w an ohio interest. skip is back w the exfiance. and i am exhausted my sanity beyond belief.
i'm meant to be alone and unhappy. i realized a month or so ago that i do in fact miss having someone there. yet, i really cannot lower myself down to the options i have. exbfs no more. and atown boys make my head hurt. ooh except for one. that is it... i am on a mission. even that shall go wrong
and tomorrow skip and i are supposed to swim in her pool and drink some buds after i get off at wms... we shall see. this is just a test... warning a test.
better not hold my breath... for much anymore from anyone. i give in. i give up. i give out. out it is.
and obviously not myspace. found one, screwed up royally... he's got a fucking gf. i am just too old for drama. i think all the normal guys are taken and or living out of the country. i really started to like this guy too. i mean, we clicked. he plays guitar, loves music. great kisser. funny. antigreen, but yet not completely. i really don't get it. do i have a kick me sign on my heart?
i've just been so disappointed lately. beaklets where are you? no offense, but i have had virtually no support from the friends. nicole is acting shady. nobs is busy w an ohio interest. skip is back w the exfiance. and i am exhausted my sanity beyond belief.
i'm meant to be alone and unhappy. i realized a month or so ago that i do in fact miss having someone there. yet, i really cannot lower myself down to the options i have. exbfs no more. and atown boys make my head hurt. ooh except for one. that is it... i am on a mission. even that shall go wrong
and tomorrow skip and i are supposed to swim in her pool and drink some buds after i get off at wms... we shall see. this is just a test... warning a test.
better not hold my breath... for much anymore from anyone. i give in. i give up. i give out. out it is.