Wowzers.
Im thinking about stepping away from FB. I spend too much time on my phone, and checking into FB is on the top of that time suck. I also kinda have started to get a bitter, drowning, feeling from it...
I think putting myself on restriction from it is good...
But after 20 years of writing down my thoughts on the internet's i guess here i am again.
For the last 6 months or so my anxiety flows directly into depression, which flows into the fuzzies, which empties into anxiety. Im used to this pattern, but normally it is stretched out over half a year. Lately it is on hyperdrive. Thanks to all the flux with B's work, we have spent more time uninsured than insured this year, and it will be a few weeks until i can even figure out who i can see locally, but i will go in this time...
B's work stuff is settling down. I really thought he was just going to drag up from H&M.... Now he is inspecting and genuinely happy. That they are paying him so well likely helps.
The boys still are. Elijah finished school last May. Ean should finish this year. I cannot believe that we homeschooled the whole darn thing.
Eli plans on taking a gap year to save up a bit before starting school again. Still plans on going into nursing. He has worked nights at homedepot for about 6 months now, and while doesnt love it, doesnt hate it. First week of the month he went to Ill to visit Kayla. ♡ so proud of him for being so brave. I wouldnt have been able to do it! He said he really likes her family and feels that he fit in with them well. I wonder if he is thinking about moving out there, but he denies it, so we will see. Id rather he waits till they are both finished with college, but young love and all that jazz.
Ean plans on nothing more than waking up tomorrow. He kvetchs quite a lot about "what am i gonna dooooo?" But doesnt make much effort or movement in the getting on with it... he gets that from me. At least he will always be around to water the cats when i go on vacations..
Leaving on Thursday for White Sands NM for a little mini vacation.Last time i was there it was 1988, when we moved from Cali back to OK. ♡ excited to spend a few days with B, thankful that he has a really long weekend off. I really didnt want to go to pecos and just sit around while he was at work. Finding a cabin proved impossible, and im really notoriously the worst at picking hotels offline, so *fingers crossed* that the place i chose will be decent.
I think putting myself on restriction from it is good...
But after 20 years of writing down my thoughts on the internet's i guess here i am again.
For the last 6 months or so my anxiety flows directly into depression, which flows into the fuzzies, which empties into anxiety. Im used to this pattern, but normally it is stretched out over half a year. Lately it is on hyperdrive. Thanks to all the flux with B's work, we have spent more time uninsured than insured this year, and it will be a few weeks until i can even figure out who i can see locally, but i will go in this time...
B's work stuff is settling down. I really thought he was just going to drag up from H&M.... Now he is inspecting and genuinely happy. That they are paying him so well likely helps.
The boys still are. Elijah finished school last May. Ean should finish this year. I cannot believe that we homeschooled the whole darn thing.
Eli plans on taking a gap year to save up a bit before starting school again. Still plans on going into nursing. He has worked nights at homedepot for about 6 months now, and while doesnt love it, doesnt hate it. First week of the month he went to Ill to visit Kayla. ♡ so proud of him for being so brave. I wouldnt have been able to do it! He said he really likes her family and feels that he fit in with them well. I wonder if he is thinking about moving out there, but he denies it, so we will see. Id rather he waits till they are both finished with college, but young love and all that jazz.
Ean plans on nothing more than waking up tomorrow. He kvetchs quite a lot about "what am i gonna dooooo?" But doesnt make much effort or movement in the getting on with it... he gets that from me. At least he will always be around to water the cats when i go on vacations..
Leaving on Thursday for White Sands NM for a little mini vacation.Last time i was there it was 1988, when we moved from Cali back to OK. ♡ excited to spend a few days with B, thankful that he has a really long weekend off. I really didnt want to go to pecos and just sit around while he was at work. Finding a cabin proved impossible, and im really notoriously the worst at picking hotels offline, so *fingers crossed* that the place i chose will be decent.