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So things aren't that good here. Well, they're okay, but...no they're not good. I am once again eating iregulary(but now its like undereating(which is really good)) and when I look in the mirror I see this 140 pound fatso. I don't want to go back to an enormous weight like that. Well getting of that subject....
Tomorow I am going to Middleton for a mao competition. A lot of drama went on in my division over me and Leo. Oh well though. I'm pretty upset about the situation. I don't want to go tomorow, but I amm. It's overnight. And by the way, Ashley, tell me how the test is, and if you dont mind.....tell me some of the things I need to know. Because I am not taking the test on friday.
I've become this new "pain relieving thing" of mine a ritual. And its not good. Cause now I have to bring the damn tweeers(part of the thing I do) to mao and when no ones watching I have to go into the bathroom and do it. I just can't be normal for a few days. So yeah, things suck. I am misunderstood, a fat slob, codependant, and don't fit in. If you havent noticed, I didnt ntake my medicine today. Sometimes I just feel like not taking it just so feel like crap. I dont know. I'm fucked up. And right now the only thing that makes me feel okaay for a few seconds are those tweezers. fuck.
Tomorow I am going to Middleton for a mao competition. A lot of drama went on in my division over me and Leo. Oh well though. I'm pretty upset about the situation. I don't want to go tomorow, but I amm. It's overnight. And by the way, Ashley, tell me how the test is, and if you dont mind.....tell me some of the things I need to know. Because I am not taking the test on friday.
I've become this new "pain relieving thing" of mine a ritual. And its not good. Cause now I have to bring the damn tweeers(part of the thing I do) to mao and when no ones watching I have to go into the bathroom and do it. I just can't be normal for a few days. So yeah, things suck. I am misunderstood, a fat slob, codependant, and don't fit in. If you havent noticed, I didnt ntake my medicine today. Sometimes I just feel like not taking it just so feel like crap. I dont know. I'm fucked up. And right now the only thing that makes me feel okaay for a few seconds are those tweezers. fuck.