Hello again, its me!
I saw on Facebook where an old LJ friend passed away from an accidental fall. It brought me back to here because I wanted to re-visit her. It's been so long. I started writing more in my paper journal because there were so many bad memories here. Maybe I will start getting caught up and see who is still on here. For so many years, LJ provided me with an exhaust system. It might be nice to just start keeping a straight up diary of days again. I haven't managed to be consistent about journaling and sometimes I really do miss being open and writing fearlessly like I did once. I will never be that open again, but it would be nice to say something makes me want to die if that is how I am feeling, something is making me feel so alive.
I was really sorry to hear about Laura. She was always so kind and encouraging about creativity. Im going to go back and see what the last thing she said to me on here was, but I had to update info and figure out how to reclaim my account...the whole works. I am currently at the beach on Cape Cod with the family I currently work for.We have been through so many health crisisses with my lady that we are more like family. I won't ever post any photos of her but she almost always by my side resting and be adorable.
My boss always lets me have the nicest room with the master bath and the most privacy. My current house in this 1940s modern Cape Cod is magically amazing. There is a big writing desk with an old barrel backed desk chair. It has French doors that open to a balcony with views on jack pine tree covered sand dunes and the ocean. It's located on the national shoreline and this is the last house before five miles of pristine untouched shoreline. Between traveling and having amazing experiences with Mike Q, and traveling and spending so much quality time with my Lady and her family, I have really been fortunate to experience a whole other life from, that of my childhood up till I moved to Boston. I don't know if I can or want to ever go back till it's time for me to go home and die. For now I am centered on living, and living well. I am just glad to wake up each morning to a brand new day of life.