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The weather is feeling like fall here. I was surprised when I stepped outside and felt the cool strong breeze. I have have let a kidney inefection go on for to long and get out of hand. Within a day a on taking antibiotics my back hurt less.
THings are going good at my new job. Well, its a temp to perm job. I have interviewed witht he Boston passport agency and have started goign through the security clearance process. I live with a forigner and have some debt history from all my bad decisions but nothing now in collections.
Ryans big day was on the 21st.Im so pissed at him and myself for going astray. Him from sanity into sex and drugs, and me from my sanity and God. God has been so good to me and I am starting see ways that he always makes a way miriaculously when I have really needed it. I didnt even think about Ryan till I saw it on FB. In the past I would have gotten drunk and talked to his picture or wrote in my leather bound journal words of a crying pathetic drunk. Im fucking done with that shit. William and I both, and our whole little family are doing well and Ry would like that. I am proud of us and we are going to live the lives we were meant to live. The tv cut on in the middle of night. Its never done that before. MQ says I probably didnt turn it allt he way off but it was weird that it turned on like that on that partivular day of the whole year.
The past weeks with MQ have been so peaceful and nice. We play lots of music. He bought me the new talor swift album to trat me to something I wanted, He is so thoughtful like that. Its a really nice album. I dont know how I feel about it in comparison to the others yet. I really really liked Red, 1987, and Reputation.
we went to see last weekend once upon a time in Holywood. I liked it but its not a movie to watch if you dont have 3 hours to sit and enjoy some vibes and good looking guys. I wish things had of actually turned out like that in real life for Sharon tate.
We finished Stranger Things. When I watched it the first time Ryan was running around crazy on drugs cheeting on me and doing lord knows what. I watched it unhappily wondering what was going on with him and wondering why I had to watch it alone, not having a damn clue what was happening. This time around I was in the arms of my wonderful lover in a beautiful spotlessly clean downtown Boston loft being treated like a queen chaos free. Chaos free!!!! I hope becuase I wrote that the devil doesnt come and try and wreck it and take it from me. Its been so lovely to live quietly. Go to work, have dinner with a glass of wine at a table, an hour of music, an hour of a show, and bed. This weekend he is taking me away for a long weekend since its his birthday and labor day. We are going to Kennybunk Maine. I am goign to try and see Tonya there, my ukranian sister.
The orange line had a fire last friday and I had to uber home. I have been taking a free shuttle to work but it was overloaded becuase of the fire so I ubered home. I hate the train in hte mornings. There is usually over crowding and your on it like a cattle car and there is usually a crazy smelly person being loud. I told one of them to be queit and I was feeling crazy enough to throw my weight into a fight and I think he saw I was feeling kamikaze and backed off and sat there quiet and subdued. People were really shocked. SOmetimes that how I feel after my horrible life the past years now that I am quiet and chaos free. Please God just let it last.