i can't describe it

[susanabanana]

i feel weird.
i feel like screaming.
i feel like crying.
i need to cry.
i think it'll make me feel better.
nothing can make me feel better.
fuck people.
damn why do things have to be this way.
our song.
my hair.
i'm such an emotional person.
why can't i just have my friends back.
i miss you.
i miss it all.
high school was fun.
why do i have to think this way.
why do i always let myself get walked all over.
i think i have a sick need to feel wanted.
if you knew you'd understand.
heart is breaking.
do you understand.
you can't stop me now.
i've made it this far.
how it feels to be alone and not believe.
i miss selena.
she was so wrong but so right.
this is how it feels to not believe.
i remember the huge crush i had on sean.
how i finally got to kiss him.
i remember how i used to look.
do you??
i remember how cute ally looked cheering.
i remember cheering.
lol, i remember how much trouble i got into when i kissed matt rapp after a game in front of pam!!
i remember jennifer j. dropping me from a partner stunt. right onto my ass.
cheer camp and mike. yumm
graduation night. damn did i get any sleep??

i don't know why i do this to myself. no one gives a fuck. this is not a fucking pity party either. just a vent.

goodnight.... i rock hardcore