Cause tomorrows just another day
i never thought i would get to this point where i feel so terrible about my body. im not one of those girls to care but seriously, i need to lose 10 pounds. i dont know how. i really dont. when i eat healthy i never feel satisfied. i sit here, hungry even after dinner. i mean i exercised for almost 3 hours today and seemed to gain weight? i dont understand my body like i thought i did. I HATE THIS. noone can make me feel better about this or help me. i can only help my self and its the hardest thing in the world. fuck being overweight.
ANYWAY, today was a frekain tuesday. worst day of the week. school wasnt so horrible. classes were fine and i seemed to just float through the day, one class at a time. i didnt even feel tired much. swim was crazy as usual but i felt fairly good in the water. i saw AJ and jesse todayyy :) i miss budlong sometimes. this week is dragging on slowly. morning practice tomorrow! eeek!
i feel so strange. i feel so great one moment about it and the next, everything has vanished. maybe this all was just a misunderstanding. i dont want to be the joke again. im putting my guards up. i dont want to be hurt. i thought i could do it again but i dont think i can. i just wish things would turn out differently. i want to let him in so badly but will he accept the invitation? i dont think so. how frustrating!?! bahhh its not worth it being frazzled even though its a great distraction.
Time, you left me standing there
Like a tree growing all alone
The wind just stripped me bare, stripped me bare
Time, the past has come and gone
The futures far away
Now only lasts for one second, one second
Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
cause tomorrows just another day
And I dont believe in time