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what a gloomy morning.
my dad just told me our family friend Brenda's cousin, uncle AND nephew all did in TWO days, all caused by car crashes. at different times. today's my dads girlfriends birthday, she turns 25. we're going out to dinner, brenda was supposed to go but she had to fly out to west virginia yesterday, life is so depressing.
so.
the show is going well. Thursday night, I couldnt stop crying backstage. I didnt even really have a reason, i was just feeling so crappy, like nothing could ever go well for me ever again. Friday Joel and Matt were SUPPOSED to go. SUPPOSED to, yes. but of course they never showed up. I shouldnt of even expected them to. matt, I would of thought better of him. it makes me so upset, the person I care about most in the world thinks im the shit under his shoe. im not even worth his time. anyway before i start crying even more. Saturday night after the show me, Fiona and Nick all went to Rogues house in fuckin hunters point. she was having this really interesting party though. her moms band was playing and a bunch of other bands. it was sick, we got to go backstage. it was really intense. especially because we were very stoned. so then yesterday (Sunday) after our matinee show we had this cast party at Cybelles, it was fun. almost most of the cast played spin the bottle. it was fun. I kissed miles. haha, and victor was the first person i got to kiss...woo...hoo....hahaha. then after stuffing our mouths with never ending pizza, me miles, roshann and grace went to Karen and Victors friends house. russian party all the way baby! David, Johnny, Eldon and Adam wre there. there was this guy Lobster, who was really hot, he drove us all home. he goes to urban, he seemed hella cool. grace miles and roshann all spent the night. and now im having this nice relaxing day.....pff....im angry at the world. why did you fuck me over so harshly?
my dad just told me our family friend Brenda's cousin, uncle AND nephew all did in TWO days, all caused by car crashes. at different times. today's my dads girlfriends birthday, she turns 25. we're going out to dinner, brenda was supposed to go but she had to fly out to west virginia yesterday, life is so depressing.
so.
the show is going well. Thursday night, I couldnt stop crying backstage. I didnt even really have a reason, i was just feeling so crappy, like nothing could ever go well for me ever again. Friday Joel and Matt were SUPPOSED to go. SUPPOSED to, yes. but of course they never showed up. I shouldnt of even expected them to. matt, I would of thought better of him. it makes me so upset, the person I care about most in the world thinks im the shit under his shoe. im not even worth his time. anyway before i start crying even more. Saturday night after the show me, Fiona and Nick all went to Rogues house in fuckin hunters point. she was having this really interesting party though. her moms band was playing and a bunch of other bands. it was sick, we got to go backstage. it was really intense. especially because we were very stoned. so then yesterday (Sunday) after our matinee show we had this cast party at Cybelles, it was fun. almost most of the cast played spin the bottle. it was fun. I kissed miles. haha, and victor was the first person i got to kiss...woo...hoo....hahaha. then after stuffing our mouths with never ending pizza, me miles, roshann and grace went to Karen and Victors friends house. russian party all the way baby! David, Johnny, Eldon and Adam wre there. there was this guy Lobster, who was really hot, he drove us all home. he goes to urban, he seemed hella cool. grace miles and roshann all spent the night. and now im having this nice relaxing day.....pff....im angry at the world. why did you fuck me over so harshly?