3 cheers for my shity LUCK

[surviving]

Soooooooooooo

never thought I would be posting this.

1. Found out the day before yesturday that 3 weeks ago when Brandon went to a party with ALL MY FRIENDS while I was at work that Amber sort of found him in the lake KISSING a girl...the girl throwing the party...uugg...just writting kills me. My heart is tearting apart rightr now... I feel really icky.

2. It takes me hours upon hours to tear the "truth" from him...I don't think I got it all out but I don't think I will be able to ever trusty him...

3. No trust no relationship....

4. Why can't I let him go?? Why is he still in my bed at home right now?? I FUCKING HATE MYSELF........AND I HATE HIME TOO RIGHT NOW........

stress.......

5. Amber wasn't the one who told me...my "frindship" with her is over. FUCK HER. Now I know how her ex felt when he found out about her messing around and none of his firend thst knew told him either.

So I guess life is on its downward spiral voyage once again.

3 cheers for me

hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!

fu life