What a Mess
Having the feeling of not being able to manage yourself as you intended is really the most frustrating. You know, that feeling of helplessness because you just can't bring yourself to do things that you should, even must, do over and over again. Not only such feeling inflicts constant anxiousness, it also causes detestable headache for who knows how long it will last. It doesn't matter if you have the support of the people around you, a bunch of it actually, but still you can't bring yourself to do things or at least finish what you've started. Things alternately bore you, even those that used to easily entertain you. All you feel most of the time is to sleep them all away and wake up to a new, better day where all those things you don't manage to do miraculously done or just vanish don't matter where to.
Probably, it's that period of time in which your life cycle is pausing at the bottom line. You may realise it. You may also aware that it's the nature's way of telling you that you need to work harder despite your feeling to have work hard enough. Because time keeps on moving. It never has the desire to stop for even a millisecond to any one's content. And you can only curse to yourself for being too weak to even have the belief that you can do it.