Goals
My Short term goals that I wish to maintain on a long term basis:
I would like to find some more routine in my day to day life. I want my day more structured. I sometimes, especially as of late, feel like I am just floundering around. I find security in knowing when I am doing what. I know that I have to be careful to not schedule myself out of relaxation and pointless amusement though. I want to remain very focused on the path that I have chosen and I believe this will help me along the way.
I want to implement and stick too a sleeping schedule. I believe lack of rest is causing me to get sick a lot again.
I want to begin exercising, stretching, and doing kata in the mornings each day ( again). I am not sure when I stopped but I need to get back to doing this. I would like to do at least 100 3-point crunches a day, and 200 regular crunches... We'll see if I can find that motivation. I detest the 3 points.
I want to spend at least 30 minutes doing some leisure reading and 30 minutes listening to music each day.
I want to spend more time in meditation and begin to see is for what it is rather than just something I do each day. I once really enjoyed this aspect of my life and wish to embrace it once again.
I want to write my thoughts on one verse of the Tao each day and really focus on what it means and how it can be applied to my life. I have planned to do this for sometime but have forgotten or continue putting it off.
I want to write in my journal everyday.
The first thing I must do before I can achieve any of this is stop looking at the list and doubting that I can find the self discipline to apply myself and achieve these things. None of these are on my cant list, therefore I can. I just remembered that my favorite children's story of all time when I was growing up was " The Little Engine That Could". My Dad use to tell me the story and I fell asleep many nights hearing the chant of " I think I can. I think I can. I think I can." Often he would tell me the story and change the words to " I know I can" especially when I was struggling with a new technique in gymnastics. Was it any wonder that as a young child I did not believe there was anything I was incapable of, including flying. When I was young I use to love the uneven bars because I believed I was flying... Somewhere I lost that belief in myself and I plan to work to find it again. My number one enemy is cant and I plan to change the way I think about it more and more each day. So, my first and my last goal is to believe that I can.