blue sky, when you gonna learn to rain?
I always feel like I'm on the brink of destruction. I really just want to crawl into a corner, fill it with alcohol, and then sit and stew for a few days before emerging. If that ever happens. I've become worse about ignoring problems and letting things dig themselves under my skin. I miss being carefree and hopeful. I think I was this Fall, but looking back on it I think it was more of the same. I just had more distractions and fewer stressors. It scares me to think that all I want to do is take some hard drug and trip out because I'm starting to believe it will make life more interesting.
Went home today for band practice. It was pretty much your average practice, but I walked in on my dad, mom, and sister sitting down for dinner and I miss that. I miss the comfort of familial routine. After practice I went upstairs to find my parents just to talk to them. I usually don't do that. I was hoping that they would say something that would bring me up to earth and out of this present darkness. My father found the moon in his telescope tonight. I managed to look at it for a few moments before it became obscured by the clouds.
They found the boy from Tech who was missing for the past 2 weeks. He was dead. I just looked him up on facebook and wondered what caused him to do what he did. I can speculate.
Blue sky when you gonna learn to rain?
And let yourself go blue for once
And let go of the weight you've been carrying
In this house, no one goes to sleep for days,
It's like we're working on a mountainside
Trying not to slide,
Into the ocean.
I can take care of you
But only if you want
I'm strong enough to carry you
Across the icy lake, across the icy lake
But I cant fight your blues,
Cause I know I'll lose
What's left of my mind
I can't win,
But for you I will try
My baby blue
My mountain is hidden in a pile of trees
And its the one I'll have to climb,
If I ever wanna see,
Over the ocean
Blue sky, when you gonna learn to rain?
And let yourself go blue for once
And let go of the pain?
You can take care of me
The way I'd like to feel
Underneath the riverbed
Across the icy lake, across the icy lake
But I cant fight your blues
Cause I know I'll lose
What's left of my mind
I cant win,
But for you I will try
For you
My baby blue
It would start raining now.
Went home today for band practice. It was pretty much your average practice, but I walked in on my dad, mom, and sister sitting down for dinner and I miss that. I miss the comfort of familial routine. After practice I went upstairs to find my parents just to talk to them. I usually don't do that. I was hoping that they would say something that would bring me up to earth and out of this present darkness. My father found the moon in his telescope tonight. I managed to look at it for a few moments before it became obscured by the clouds.
They found the boy from Tech who was missing for the past 2 weeks. He was dead. I just looked him up on facebook and wondered what caused him to do what he did. I can speculate.
Blue sky when you gonna learn to rain?
And let yourself go blue for once
And let go of the weight you've been carrying
In this house, no one goes to sleep for days,
It's like we're working on a mountainside
Trying not to slide,
Into the ocean.
I can take care of you
But only if you want
I'm strong enough to carry you
Across the icy lake, across the icy lake
But I cant fight your blues,
Cause I know I'll lose
What's left of my mind
I can't win,
But for you I will try
My baby blue
My mountain is hidden in a pile of trees
And its the one I'll have to climb,
If I ever wanna see,
Over the ocean
Blue sky, when you gonna learn to rain?
And let yourself go blue for once
And let go of the pain?
You can take care of me
The way I'd like to feel
Underneath the riverbed
Across the icy lake, across the icy lake
But I cant fight your blues
Cause I know I'll lose
What's left of my mind
I cant win,
But for you I will try
For you
My baby blue
It would start raining now.