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The air tastes sweet today......I think its the warmth. I was a bit disappointed that it didn't storm last night. With so much wind I was sure it would and sitting outside thinking about everything that goes on from day to day and kicking myself in the ass for taking all the good in my life for granted yesterday. I would like to say I was just tired but I rarely get more than 3 or 4 hours a night anyway and that's just how its been for years now so that's not it. Well.....we all have our moments. Yesterday I had one.....it was just a funk. I am really gonna try and not be moody anymore. Its almost like the weekends as of late are like a drug because I have been having so much fun with the new friends that I am making that when the work week returns I must socially come down. Well that's hard but definitely worth it.....it will get easier once I relearn the so called "game"
It seems with all that I have done in the short quarter century that I have been alive I see more mistakes than accomplishments. Maybe its just easier to fuck up.....maybe its harder to forget when you do.
I miss the smell of warm summer rain....I could almost smell it last night.....the air was so warm even after sunset. The night was clear and for the first time in a month or 2 I just laid back on the ground and talked to the stars.
I found another pic of two people kissing and similar to the other one I posted this is a black and white photo, also the two people just getting in one last moment before they part ways for they are obviously headed in opposite directions.
Kinda reminds me of all those sad good byes every weekend for a long time when Nicole would drop me off at the bus station to go back home after visiting her. Like when I would find out the the bus was late and I had time to run back to her car before she backed out just to stick my head in her window and get one more kiss before we had to part ways ourselves.
I sure am happy I don't feel bad about her anymore. But I do miss someone.
Just wish I knew who.
I am going up to "The Bluesstage" tonight. Gonna hang out with rosie and Sandra. Sandra has so much interesting stuff to say and she is a good communicator too. I find that to be more important more and more all the time. Shes who I just sat and talked with for like 4 hours Friday night. I really like listening to people when they have interesting stuff to say.
It seems with all that I have done in the short quarter century that I have been alive I see more mistakes than accomplishments. Maybe its just easier to fuck up.....maybe its harder to forget when you do.
I miss the smell of warm summer rain....I could almost smell it last night.....the air was so warm even after sunset. The night was clear and for the first time in a month or 2 I just laid back on the ground and talked to the stars.
I found another pic of two people kissing and similar to the other one I posted this is a black and white photo, also the two people just getting in one last moment before they part ways for they are obviously headed in opposite directions.
Kinda reminds me of all those sad good byes every weekend for a long time when Nicole would drop me off at the bus station to go back home after visiting her. Like when I would find out the the bus was late and I had time to run back to her car before she backed out just to stick my head in her window and get one more kiss before we had to part ways ourselves.
I sure am happy I don't feel bad about her anymore. But I do miss someone.
Just wish I knew who.
I am going up to "The Bluesstage" tonight. Gonna hang out with rosie and Sandra. Sandra has so much interesting stuff to say and she is a good communicator too. I find that to be more important more and more all the time. Shes who I just sat and talked with for like 4 hours Friday night. I really like listening to people when they have interesting stuff to say.