Los Angeles Hardcore

[surrealslash]

Okay, let me preface this by saying that in real life, I am a rather shy and quiet girl. I don't rage, I don't yell, and I definitely don't mosh. I am sometimes intimidated by aggressive people, large crowds, and loud noises. I'm also quite small (5'2", 110 pounds) and therefore easily crushed. These are some of the reasons why I haven't gone to an

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[anchors_ashore]

I understand what you mean about letting older fans get in on this, but really...you deserve to go, too. I'm sure you know this, but it's really not about who's been a fan for longer. I HATE the idea that some people think that if you haven't been a fan for very long, then you're not a real fan. I got into them during the StS era, and I used to HATE hearing about how I wasn't a REAL fan because I got into them during their first major studio album. So I say FUCK THAT SHIT! You're a fan, you deserve to be there.

Besides, I'd rather someone that I like get the opportunity to go. Plus I know you'll appreciate it...unlike others who are just going around, bragging about going.

Also. I will DIE if they play Malleus for you, AS WELL AS MIDNIGHT SUN AND SYNESTHESIA OH MY GOD. Sorry, I dorked out pretty hardcore there. It's also taking me all my might not to be like, "OMG YOU SHOULD CALL ME DURING THE SHOW!" because. Well. We don't know each other very well, but that's partly my fault because quite frankly, you intimidate the hell out of me (there, I finally said it), and you said you're a pretty shy person, so that just seems pretty rude of me to do. But I have to admit, the urge is there.

...God, I shouldn't be allowed on the Internet to comment on shit so early in the morning.

[surrealslash]

Exactly. I was slightly crushed when someone on the OMB said that one of the reasons why the ticket sale was handled the way it was, was to cut down on the number of new DFers getting tickets (which doesn’t make sense, strategically, if you ask me). When I saw that, I was like, "Hey! That's not very nice." However, it did make me think twice about trying for tickets. I mean, if I'm not wanted, then maybe I shouldn't go. But then I decided, "Fuck that, I shouldn't let other people guilt trip me into giving up my chance to go to this show, no matter who they are. I'm a fan, and I bought my tickets fair and square." Just because I haven't been around since the beginning doesn't mean I'm ignorant of the history and legacy of this band, or that I’m unable to appreciate the older songs.

YES, if they play those songs, I will have a major dork out session, but hopefully no fangirling, because that will cause me to flash back to my teenybopper days, and nobody wants to see that.

Am I really an intimidating person? Back in high school, two people told me (on separate occasions) that I was intimidating, but I’m always surprised and puzzled by this. I always thought of myself as rather timid and non-threatening, although I admit that I tend to be somewhat bolder online. Maybe more people think of me this way, but are too intimidated to tell me?

I totally would call you from the show and at least hold the phone up so you can hear, but my boyfriend is supposed to come with me and he has no idea that I write slash or that I’m part of an online community of AFI fans, so it’d be rather difficult explaining to him who I’m calling. =P I will definitely write a full report, if I have not been killed dead by the awesomeness of those four guys.

[anchors_ashore]

Are you SERIOUS about the people on the OMB saying that? Dear CHRIST. I would ask what the hell is wrong with people, but that would just be a waste of time. I get REALLY angry when I hear about things like this, people who act like they're so much *BETTER* than me because they found out about AFI before I did. Well, good for them, but I live in Indiana, which is GREAT if you like Nascar racing, but NOT if you want to find some good music. If it hadn't been for MTV, I would have never found out about them, and if I had never found out about them...I don't know where my life would be right now. So you enjoy yourself, and I'll use my Jedi mind tricks to elbow any elitist assholes in the face who might give you a hard time about going!

You know, it's funny, because I get told a lot that I'm intimidating. I honestly think that people think so because I have a REALLY loud voice; even when I'm stuttering or I'm not sure what I'm talking about, my voice completely hides that fact. I find you intimidating because of your intelligence; the fact that you really think about what you're going to say, how seriously you take your writing (which I take mine seriously, but you are SERIOUSLY dedicated to yours, whereas most of the time I'm just winging it), and really...it's because you're smart. I love being around smart people, but I'm intimidated by them, because I feel like I've fooled everyone around me into thinking that I'm super intelligent, when really, I'm not. I'm actually quite ditzy and because I grew up in Indiana, where our educational system is HORRENDOUS, I'm not as smart as everyone thinks I am. But. That's my own issues coming into play, not a reflection on you.

Now that you know more about me than you probably EVER wanted to know...

Hee, don't worry about the calling! I was only halfway kidding. And I understand about trying to keep your slasher status a secret...I had to do that when I was younger, and it wasn't much fun at all. But I'll definitely be looking forward to your report when you get back!

[surrealslash]

Haha, I'll let you in on a little secret: it's not so much that I'm really smart, it's just that I hate being wrong, or maybe that I always think I'm right. I think my fear is that I'm not really as smart as I think I am, and people will call me on it. Speaking of horrendous educational systems, try California on for size. I think we rank like #42 in the U.S.

*sigh* I don't think I'll ever be able to come out of the slash closet, because I don't imagine "Hey sweetie, did you know that when you're not around, I like to read and write hot boy-on-boy action starring members of my favorite band? Oh, and just because I have sexual fantasies involving Davey Havok doesn't mean I don't love you" would go over well with the BF.