Alchemical.
Gah. I bombed that math exam. What the fuck? I spent a lot of time studying for it and scored a 50%. How is this possible? I really am hating this place. Thanksgiving break in seven days though, thank goodness.
I'm not feeling productive tonight. Which is rather scary as I have my chem exam tomorrow and i cannot afford to do badly. But I just don't feel like myself. I have an annoying headache and I'm tired, but I've got plenty of sleep, maybe even too much.
Folks, I am feeling listless right now. And that's highly annoying. I don't want to go across campus to my geo friends' places, even if they weren't doing something right now. I don't want to call Elisse because she irritates me at the best of times and I'm in a bad mood. I could hang out with Reed but I'd probably have to leave. And Brett is with Casey watching Big Bang Theory.
...And that is pretty much everyone I am friends with on campus.
It hasn't stopped raining in nearly 24 hours. The temperature dropped a good thirty degrees today, and there is snow forecasted in the western part of the state. What a mess.
What's more, I've read all the new fic on fake news fanfic. What am I going to do now?
...Actually, I could go to the computer lab and watch TCR, TDS, and Conan, since I didn't see last night's episode for any of them. But it's so cold out there... I don't feel like leaving.
I already called my parents tonight, so can't do that. Kingdom of Loathing just went down for nightly maintenance, not to come back on for another twenty minutes. Didn't matter, I was finding it hard to get into the conversation anyway. I don't want to get onto facebook. I don't want to do chemistry. I don't want to do math. I don't want to listen to the psych lectures. I don't want to go out into the kitchen where everyone else is watching tv and enjoying themselves because I don't like them. I don't want to tell Diana that her text of "You are very loved and you can do thinks right sometimes it just takes work" kind of made me want to throw her off a cliff. And Anne stopped texting me. And I think Ontinia is busy because she isn't on twitter and it is Friday night maybe they are watching a movie? I don't know.
Let's see... I think that's it. Aside from the obligatory "okay, where do I stand with the guy thing? He says we need to hang out but then I feel like I'm this close to messing things up again like always" feelings.
But in other news... Thanksgiving break starts next Friday as soon as I get out of class and across the state. I so need it too.
I've got a Domino Sugar packet on my desk and I'm dying to use Heidi's pick up line on someone. (Hey, you dropped your nametag.) And I'm in the mood to write, but I need to eat, so I got to wander out into the kitchen for something, even if it is just a bowl of cereal. But what to write? I don't even know. I have this idea for these characters, but I fear they are just overglorified versions of myself. So then I have to think about it; is this just self-insertion? It isn't a fanfic, it's my own plot, and it's my own thoughts, so like a stylised nonfic... fic thing. And... agh. That's why I write fanfic. But I want a good old boy meets girl, which is difficult to get when all you've watched or read for two months is Stephen and Jon. And someone promised me Stephen/John and have not followed through yet. Hmm. Sounds like I need to do some writing here...
I'm not feeling productive tonight. Which is rather scary as I have my chem exam tomorrow and i cannot afford to do badly. But I just don't feel like myself. I have an annoying headache and I'm tired, but I've got plenty of sleep, maybe even too much.
Folks, I am feeling listless right now. And that's highly annoying. I don't want to go across campus to my geo friends' places, even if they weren't doing something right now. I don't want to call Elisse because she irritates me at the best of times and I'm in a bad mood. I could hang out with Reed but I'd probably have to leave. And Brett is with Casey watching Big Bang Theory.
...And that is pretty much everyone I am friends with on campus.
It hasn't stopped raining in nearly 24 hours. The temperature dropped a good thirty degrees today, and there is snow forecasted in the western part of the state. What a mess.
What's more, I've read all the new fic on fake news fanfic. What am I going to do now?
...Actually, I could go to the computer lab and watch TCR, TDS, and Conan, since I didn't see last night's episode for any of them. But it's so cold out there... I don't feel like leaving.
I already called my parents tonight, so can't do that. Kingdom of Loathing just went down for nightly maintenance, not to come back on for another twenty minutes. Didn't matter, I was finding it hard to get into the conversation anyway. I don't want to get onto facebook. I don't want to do chemistry. I don't want to do math. I don't want to listen to the psych lectures. I don't want to go out into the kitchen where everyone else is watching tv and enjoying themselves because I don't like them. I don't want to tell Diana that her text of "You are very loved and you can do thinks right sometimes it just takes work" kind of made me want to throw her off a cliff. And Anne stopped texting me. And I think Ontinia is busy because she isn't on twitter and it is Friday night maybe they are watching a movie? I don't know.
Let's see... I think that's it. Aside from the obligatory "okay, where do I stand with the guy thing? He says we need to hang out but then I feel like I'm this close to messing things up again like always" feelings.
But in other news... Thanksgiving break starts next Friday as soon as I get out of class and across the state. I so need it too.
I've got a Domino Sugar packet on my desk and I'm dying to use Heidi's pick up line on someone. (Hey, you dropped your nametag.) And I'm in the mood to write, but I need to eat, so I got to wander out into the kitchen for something, even if it is just a bowl of cereal. But what to write? I don't even know. I have this idea for these characters, but I fear they are just overglorified versions of myself. So then I have to think about it; is this just self-insertion? It isn't a fanfic, it's my own plot, and it's my own thoughts, so like a stylised nonfic... fic thing. And... agh. That's why I write fanfic. But I want a good old boy meets girl, which is difficult to get when all you've watched or read for two months is Stephen and Jon. And someone promised me Stephen/John and have not followed through yet. Hmm. Sounds like I need to do some writing here...