ex post facto
i'm sorry it's been a while but in the meantime i was leontes and then that was over and now i'm just me again. i felt good about how it went at the time but now that i am not cast in anything for the first time in well over a year i'm not sure anymore. i'm sort of nervous about whether people are going to want to work with me again now that most of my department has seen me act. and i am not sure about how they really felt about it. eek. it's so scary because i did work very hard and gave that role everything i could and if people didn't like my performance that's a raw deal. but on the other hand i do have to remind myself that i'm still a student and it's totally ok not to get it "right." and that it was a role that is hard for any 22 year old actor. so yeah i'm still thinking about it a lot. which is good i think because i really haven't had any time to digest anything that has happened to me until now. and that will inform my choices for the next role i find. or whichever one finds me. we'll see.