Resolution
I've had kind of a crappy year. To add to the list from last year...
After the accident, and putting down my cat last year, my grandfather died in January. I think I took it badly because of the proximity to everything else that had recently happened. While I had the thought I should be strong for my mom, she made it really easy for me to grieve and not bottle it up. I think I was also grieving For Arline, Gabriel's mom. I didn't really let myself dwell on my own emotions to be able to help Gabriel better. I don't know if that worked.
After my grandfather passed, my mom was diagnosed with MS and it's taken a while for me to really process and accept that.
Then, my brother's girlfriend's mother, who was essentially his mother in law, was diagnosed with brain tumors. I forget the official diagnosis, but she then contracted shingles and her health significantly deteriorated. She passed away a few days ago.
While it's not an excuse, I have been distracted by all of this and my work in the lab has suffered. I've made several avoidable mistakes. On top of it, I have had a really short fuse with my labmates. It's not fair to them, I haven't been fair to them. So I promise to be better this year. I have had time to process the things that directly affected me most, and I think I have things under control in my head.
My resolution is to not screw up in lab; to not make avoidable mistakes; to think before I act or speak; to be a friendlier, kinder, more enjoyable person with whom to work; to work harder and to be more diligent; to stay focused and be unhurried; to lead by example instead of bossing; to judge less; to do better work.
My one wish from the universe is for no bad news in my personal life. I can handle a rejected article. I would prefer not to have one be rejected, but I can do more to fix the article than I can to fix someone's health.
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