Only Because Katy Wants Me To Update lol
Well, i've pretty much fallen off the face of the Earth to most, but I figure that it's just as well bc I've only recently realized...or actually, found out...that some of the friends I thought I had (Allison being one) weren't really my friends at all.
So she says that my life and my decisions were wrong in her eyes and had somehow affected her. Therefore, she couldn't be my friend anymore. Okay, so i don't know about you guys but if I thought my friend was making bad choices, I would tell her so bc I cared. I wouldn't just stop talking to her without her knowing why. That's just plain wrong in itself. So, even though I'm over it and I notice that I don't really miss her or anything about her, it still just bugs me that she didn't even have the guts to tell me to my face. Oh well...guess I'm just more of a woman than she is and can actually face up to my actions.
Besides that...my Summer has been a wild ride! It's been so much fun even though I haven't done that much. I've only been to the lake once, which is really odd for me bc I usually go every weekend of the summer, but my Mom's boyfriend's boat had to be fixed. And soon, I'm going on a road trip to Galveston with Manny, Jason, and Katy. The hotel we're staying at is FREAKIN AWESOME! It gives massages, has 2 indoor pools, 2 outdoor pools with a swim-up bar (not like we could use it but that's cool lol), a jacuzzi, and so much more! Plus, our hotel has a reserved part of the beach just for it's guests! It is going to be sooo much fun!
Speaking of those fellas...we've practically spent every waking hour and sleeping hour lol with each other! Katy and I especially! But we've grown so much closer for it. I've never had so many inside jokes with someone nor have I had someone read my thoughts like she does! lol Manny and I are great still. We just passed our 4 month mark and we see many more in the future. I don't how I got so lucky, but I blame it all on the fact that I lost all those other friends at the beginning of the year. If that hadn't of ended, I would never have called Michelle out of boredom and wanting to see a friendly face and therefore wouldn't have gone to Terrel to meet her boyfriend and his roommates which Manny was one of them. So, now that I think back on how this year started and how I thought I had lost so much, it was just as well bc I gained even more than I ever had. Not to mention the fact that all these people actually do care about me. And anyone who actually cares about you can't just drop you so easily....I know I couldn't.
And that just brings me back to the Allison deal. She was one of the people I thought was behind me when those guys dropped me, but nope. She's just like all the others. Makes me wonder if anyone else even knows what a true friend actually is and does. At least I have Katy and all them. They understand the concept and if any of them ever had a problem with me, they'd tell me and wouldn't just drop me without any reasons.
It sometimes surprises me at how strong I've become. After Raquel died, I never thought I'd make it through my life. So thanks to all of you that left my life willingly bc I realize that I don't need you. You were all just time that I wasted away and even though it was fun at times, I could have done something way more productive with that time instead of playing your little puppy. Thanks guys! Have fun in college and I hope you find out what true friendship is bc KARMA IS A BITCH!!! (lol Katy)
So she says that my life and my decisions were wrong in her eyes and had somehow affected her. Therefore, she couldn't be my friend anymore. Okay, so i don't know about you guys but if I thought my friend was making bad choices, I would tell her so bc I cared. I wouldn't just stop talking to her without her knowing why. That's just plain wrong in itself. So, even though I'm over it and I notice that I don't really miss her or anything about her, it still just bugs me that she didn't even have the guts to tell me to my face. Oh well...guess I'm just more of a woman than she is and can actually face up to my actions.
Besides that...my Summer has been a wild ride! It's been so much fun even though I haven't done that much. I've only been to the lake once, which is really odd for me bc I usually go every weekend of the summer, but my Mom's boyfriend's boat had to be fixed. And soon, I'm going on a road trip to Galveston with Manny, Jason, and Katy. The hotel we're staying at is FREAKIN AWESOME! It gives massages, has 2 indoor pools, 2 outdoor pools with a swim-up bar (not like we could use it but that's cool lol), a jacuzzi, and so much more! Plus, our hotel has a reserved part of the beach just for it's guests! It is going to be sooo much fun!
Speaking of those fellas...we've practically spent every waking hour and sleeping hour lol with each other! Katy and I especially! But we've grown so much closer for it. I've never had so many inside jokes with someone nor have I had someone read my thoughts like she does! lol Manny and I are great still. We just passed our 4 month mark and we see many more in the future. I don't how I got so lucky, but I blame it all on the fact that I lost all those other friends at the beginning of the year. If that hadn't of ended, I would never have called Michelle out of boredom and wanting to see a friendly face and therefore wouldn't have gone to Terrel to meet her boyfriend and his roommates which Manny was one of them. So, now that I think back on how this year started and how I thought I had lost so much, it was just as well bc I gained even more than I ever had. Not to mention the fact that all these people actually do care about me. And anyone who actually cares about you can't just drop you so easily....I know I couldn't.
And that just brings me back to the Allison deal. She was one of the people I thought was behind me when those guys dropped me, but nope. She's just like all the others. Makes me wonder if anyone else even knows what a true friend actually is and does. At least I have Katy and all them. They understand the concept and if any of them ever had a problem with me, they'd tell me and wouldn't just drop me without any reasons.
It sometimes surprises me at how strong I've become. After Raquel died, I never thought I'd make it through my life. So thanks to all of you that left my life willingly bc I realize that I don't need you. You were all just time that I wasted away and even though it was fun at times, I could have done something way more productive with that time instead of playing your little puppy. Thanks guys! Have fun in college and I hope you find out what true friendship is bc KARMA IS A BITCH!!! (lol Katy)