And Again.....
1. What is important to (in general) you and why? my family who never gives up on me, my friends who always know me better than I realize, my faith bc I wish it back, my life bc it's all I have, my talents bc it gets me far
2. What kinds of things make you happy or sad? happy: laughing, Katy, precious moments, family time, friendships that both continue and fail, my writing and singing, some school moments, and being independent sad: being alone for too long when I feel like being surrounded, being surrounded when I want to be alone, missing my sister, not spending time with my family anymore bc of certain newbies in my life (my Terrel life), not having all the friends I did just last semester over something I couldn't control, wishing I still had most of my faith, missing the church life but not being motivated to go
3. When you hear the word "spiritual" what do you think of? God, Jesus, church, the life I used to live, and the life I wish to get back to
4. Have you ever had what you would consider to be a spritual journey? If so, what was it? yes...first time I went to churhc camp and the first times I started going to Freeman Heights...I never felt better and nothing ever seemed so right. I thought life was great and I had gotten Baptized and found Christ and myself. I was surrounded by good things and good people. The journey was finding it all and knowing that I had done it on my own. Of course a friend took me there and introduced me, but it was my choice to go and to continue and to actually listen and change. That journey was a transaction over a couple years, but when I made it....looking back was like looking on a life I didn't recognize and never missed. I had known I'd made it to the other side and was saved. I stopped going there and that other life is now the one I look back on and don't recognize
5. What do you think about spiritual/religious people and why? I respect all religions and the people who follow them bc it's better to believe in something than to believe in nothing....but "Bible Thumpers" are the ones I can't stand....they are the worst kind of Christians bc they speak about all these truths, yet don't seem to follow them themselves bc they are so self-centered to see that they are going against all that they preach. They really need to have their thumbs taken off so they could stop thumping and get back to just Living The Life....there is a fine line between "witnessing" and "badgering"...God would most respect the latter
6. What do you want most to get out of life and why? I want to live my life knowing I made people happy and proud. I did all that I could to be myself and be everything to someone. I want to continue school someday and become a photographer in California. I want to be independent and learn to live by myself without needing someone so much. I want to get back to the life I once knew and feel alive again. I want to feel something again. I want to stop being numb to alot of things
7. What do you think about God? Is He real? What is God? God is real and He is everything we see, touch, feel, hear, breathe, smell, think, love, do, undo, believe, want, need, crave, thirst, live for and die for.....He is what wakes you in the morning, puts you to sleep at night, and gives you another day to go into.
8. How do you go about making important decisions and how do you know if a decision you make is the right one? I really don't think to much about it....if I do, I end up doing something really dumb or really smart lol.....if I don't think, I usually like my choice more. The decision may not be right for anyone else but me, but I know it's right if there are people that disagree with my decision....may sound wierd, but people wouldn't be as full of debate about it if there wasn't something to fuss about.....I like debate so it's probably more right for me....which is why they are debating me on it lol I don't know, I just prefer the choice that causes action....not the choice that everyone will like and agree on...that's no fun lol
9.Where do your values come from? With so much change and dicrepancy in people's values, how do you handle the differences? My values come from my family, my friends, my experiences, my knowledge, and the world around me.......I don't think about the differences....you are the way you are....I won't discriminate just bc someone else will....whatever your religion or lack thereof, I will still react the same to you as I would anyone else.
10. What do you do when you fail at your own standards? Do you have guilt? How do you handle it? I don't feel guilt bc I did it myslef.....I'd only feel guilty if it was for someone else......I handle it in that I either try again another time or I don't fail at all....either way, it's never over for me....I don't stop til I get it done
11. What do you think of when you hear the words "life" and "death" and what do you think about your own life and death? Life makes me think of everything..too much almost....I think of my family, my friends, school, working....my future When I think of death, I think of my sister, and all the things I hope to accomplish before I die and then fear that I may die tomorrow and never get to do them
12. What do you think about religion in general? About specific religions? About Christianity? I agree that religion was made by man.....Jesus never seemed to have a specific religion....he just worshipped God and witnessed to others. Then those who disagreed with him or wanted to change some things made other religions and it just kept going....I still don't think we've come to an end of it. I think people will stil find ways to bend rules to make them better for themselves...Christianity is over-rated bc people mess it up too much....they've been doing it for years.....I think we ALL remember the slave traders and the Holocaust!
13. When you hear about witches, demons, and spirits, what do you think? Halloween and all things that scare me in the dark lol
14. What kinds of things do you fear, and why? I fear alot of things....too much I think. I fear not becoming what I've always wanted....not being loved or loving as much I possible....dying too soon without accomplishing everything I know I was living for
15. What do you think about creation? How did we get here? What do you think about your own creation? Your uniqueness? Why do you think you're alive? Creation is so borad of a subject! lol I think it was....great?! lol I mean, we're all here and so are all of our surroundings lol We got here by God of course.....My own creation was that of great poetry and picture-taking lol And I am alive to live and to make people laugh and be happy....plus, give them great words and great pcitures lol
16. If there were a knowable God who loved you, supported you, forgave you, listened to you, and helped you, would you want to know him? Why or why not? I do know Him and He knows me....we're cool like that lol And if I didn't know Him, I definitely would want to know Him bc He made me and everything I know and everyone I know.....He loved me enough to do all of that so I owe it to Him to at least know Him and know what all He did for me
17. What do you think about Jesus? He was amazing and I'll never fully understand the weight he carried nor the pain he went through nor just how much his love for me was. All I can do is love him in return and live a life I think he would be proud of and feel his death was worth.....I owe him my all
2. What kinds of things make you happy or sad? happy: laughing, Katy, precious moments, family time, friendships that both continue and fail, my writing and singing, some school moments, and being independent sad: being alone for too long when I feel like being surrounded, being surrounded when I want to be alone, missing my sister, not spending time with my family anymore bc of certain newbies in my life (my Terrel life), not having all the friends I did just last semester over something I couldn't control, wishing I still had most of my faith, missing the church life but not being motivated to go
3. When you hear the word "spiritual" what do you think of? God, Jesus, church, the life I used to live, and the life I wish to get back to
4. Have you ever had what you would consider to be a spritual journey? If so, what was it? yes...first time I went to churhc camp and the first times I started going to Freeman Heights...I never felt better and nothing ever seemed so right. I thought life was great and I had gotten Baptized and found Christ and myself. I was surrounded by good things and good people. The journey was finding it all and knowing that I had done it on my own. Of course a friend took me there and introduced me, but it was my choice to go and to continue and to actually listen and change. That journey was a transaction over a couple years, but when I made it....looking back was like looking on a life I didn't recognize and never missed. I had known I'd made it to the other side and was saved. I stopped going there and that other life is now the one I look back on and don't recognize
5. What do you think about spiritual/religious people and why? I respect all religions and the people who follow them bc it's better to believe in something than to believe in nothing....but "Bible Thumpers" are the ones I can't stand....they are the worst kind of Christians bc they speak about all these truths, yet don't seem to follow them themselves bc they are so self-centered to see that they are going against all that they preach. They really need to have their thumbs taken off so they could stop thumping and get back to just Living The Life....there is a fine line between "witnessing" and "badgering"...God would most respect the latter
6. What do you want most to get out of life and why? I want to live my life knowing I made people happy and proud. I did all that I could to be myself and be everything to someone. I want to continue school someday and become a photographer in California. I want to be independent and learn to live by myself without needing someone so much. I want to get back to the life I once knew and feel alive again. I want to feel something again. I want to stop being numb to alot of things
7. What do you think about God? Is He real? What is God? God is real and He is everything we see, touch, feel, hear, breathe, smell, think, love, do, undo, believe, want, need, crave, thirst, live for and die for.....He is what wakes you in the morning, puts you to sleep at night, and gives you another day to go into.
8. How do you go about making important decisions and how do you know if a decision you make is the right one? I really don't think to much about it....if I do, I end up doing something really dumb or really smart lol.....if I don't think, I usually like my choice more. The decision may not be right for anyone else but me, but I know it's right if there are people that disagree with my decision....may sound wierd, but people wouldn't be as full of debate about it if there wasn't something to fuss about.....I like debate so it's probably more right for me....which is why they are debating me on it lol I don't know, I just prefer the choice that causes action....not the choice that everyone will like and agree on...that's no fun lol
9.Where do your values come from? With so much change and dicrepancy in people's values, how do you handle the differences? My values come from my family, my friends, my experiences, my knowledge, and the world around me.......I don't think about the differences....you are the way you are....I won't discriminate just bc someone else will....whatever your religion or lack thereof, I will still react the same to you as I would anyone else.
10. What do you do when you fail at your own standards? Do you have guilt? How do you handle it? I don't feel guilt bc I did it myslef.....I'd only feel guilty if it was for someone else......I handle it in that I either try again another time or I don't fail at all....either way, it's never over for me....I don't stop til I get it done
11. What do you think of when you hear the words "life" and "death" and what do you think about your own life and death? Life makes me think of everything..too much almost....I think of my family, my friends, school, working....my future When I think of death, I think of my sister, and all the things I hope to accomplish before I die and then fear that I may die tomorrow and never get to do them
12. What do you think about religion in general? About specific religions? About Christianity? I agree that religion was made by man.....Jesus never seemed to have a specific religion....he just worshipped God and witnessed to others. Then those who disagreed with him or wanted to change some things made other religions and it just kept going....I still don't think we've come to an end of it. I think people will stil find ways to bend rules to make them better for themselves...Christianity is over-rated bc people mess it up too much....they've been doing it for years.....I think we ALL remember the slave traders and the Holocaust!
13. When you hear about witches, demons, and spirits, what do you think? Halloween and all things that scare me in the dark lol
14. What kinds of things do you fear, and why? I fear alot of things....too much I think. I fear not becoming what I've always wanted....not being loved or loving as much I possible....dying too soon without accomplishing everything I know I was living for
15. What do you think about creation? How did we get here? What do you think about your own creation? Your uniqueness? Why do you think you're alive? Creation is so borad of a subject! lol I think it was....great?! lol I mean, we're all here and so are all of our surroundings lol We got here by God of course.....My own creation was that of great poetry and picture-taking lol And I am alive to live and to make people laugh and be happy....plus, give them great words and great pcitures lol
16. If there were a knowable God who loved you, supported you, forgave you, listened to you, and helped you, would you want to know him? Why or why not? I do know Him and He knows me....we're cool like that lol And if I didn't know Him, I definitely would want to know Him bc He made me and everything I know and everyone I know.....He loved me enough to do all of that so I owe it to Him to at least know Him and know what all He did for me
17. What do you think about Jesus? He was amazing and I'll never fully understand the weight he carried nor the pain he went through nor just how much his love for me was. All I can do is love him in return and live a life I think he would be proud of and feel his death was worth.....I owe him my all