Singing of a violent, tireless mystery

[surrahsurrah]

life is becoming too routine.
and it's giving me a headache.
there is little time and money to do things that would make my life less blah at the moment.
and it's frustrating.
i need something different. something new.

i know that change is coming, but i wish it would come sooner.
november is too far away.
where's the fast-forward button?

but i know i need to be patient.
i just feel like i've been patient my entire life.
waiting for something to happen.
something...

why do i feel so unsettled?