Nirvana
I do not know what Nirvana means, but it 'feels' appropriate. Something happened to me last night. It was no dream because I felt it when I would peer into the soft glow of morning sunlight onto my parents headpiece. It started when I sleeping or at least I think. I took my Dad to the airport at 5 o ' clock in the morning got back and went to bed.
**Well let me provide the antecedent events**
That night... NO! wait it was not Saturday night.. What I feel lead to my nirvana feeling because because of what happened on Friday night around 9 post meridian (pm). I drove to my sister Claudia's house to pick up my pay check. When my sparks were sparked.
I was unlocked. Brett, her boyfriend and business partner offered me a seat and a bowl of fruit. I went in expecting nothing but an apology and a paycheck and got the WD-40 that unrusted the person in me. In one night I was reminded of the smart man I was, of the time waster I was. My potential was seen in these people when I had not spent more than hours with them through the past week.
Months before I played pool volleyball and dominated the scene. "I've never seen you move like that before!" I was told by Brett. I am living right now as a rock with great power inside, and like a rock I keep it still, and cold.
Ecosmart lighting - their business - is in danger. It can collapse any day now. They are zig-zagging all over the place and I cannot even get a word in. They need me, and they need my intelligence. But that is besides the point.
I'm in a phase right now. I'm un-locking myself to find out who Sergio is again. And they both unlocked a door inside me. The Business Sergio Door. This event happened because I was bitching about a nickels and dimes when I should have been hasseling them about thousands of dollars. I insulted myself by stressing the pennies when I could have been using my intelligence to help the company and make us, them, thousands. Possibely millions.
The banana was amazing, the melon was even more divine, while the mango was unbelievable. (They were all refrigerated prior to my indulgence - thats probably why). I've never really had a father and Brett's never really had a Brother. He argued with me as if he was attempting to correct me or put me into place. Like a father would. His tears were noticeable at first then obvious seconds later streams of tears down his face and stillness in my face created an aura around us. We were in an energy field. Sharing the same values and idea.
This business is not about the money or about saving real estate men money. It is about Planet Earth. We have to GET Planet Earth back. We share ideals and intense passion about the current dilemma. Thats when it clicked.
I was offered the hand of God, a hand to join a team a brilliant mind to aid me aid him aid us. I accepted the brotherhood pact. Rich dad I call him. I have three dads. Hector my bio donor of Guanine DNA dbl-helix's, Roger the man who raised me from day one whom I now refer to as Poor Dad and Brett steaming his energy onto me surging his passion within me brilliant and hungry who is now referred to as Rich Dad.
Rich Dad slapped me around (not literally) and got me to pick up my hanging lip. *click* and there it was..............
IT IS AS IF THE GHOST WITHIN ME HAD AWOKEN FROM UNDER THE PILE OF DUST I WAS STORING HIM. ELEVATED FROM HIS GRAVE AND LEFT. AWAKENING A PART OF ME I HAD BEEN ATTEMPTING TO AWAKEN SINCE, ... SINCE.....SINCE I GOT HEAVY INTO DRUGS.
That night I hurried home playing "Knights of Cydonia" - Muse. Had a snack. Made French Pressed coffee iced foot and read about 6 pages of "The Fountainhead" *Mckenzie would be so proud* Promptly, I hurried to my desk turned on this contraption known as a laptop and began writing using this newfound unlocked energy. I Began Writing The Business Plan I Have Been Trying To Write For Over A Year. Since I have began I feel different. Like I AM Someone. It is Odd. I am super aware of this new cogwork and have ever since felt in control. In control of myself. I feel like I'm allocating all these bits and pieces that were scattered before and its doing something to me. To Sergio.
So I take Poor Dad to the Airport and return home to slumber. Sometime between 6am and 2pm I awaken about 2-3 times in this state of nirvana. My unconscious was chanting for me and when the soft morning light reflected into my cornea this image begins to fill in my head. It was completely symmetrical with curved sides, like that of the Spade in the game of cards. The spade like figure was contained in a green square and in the exact median. The feeling and intensity grew with every second. My unconscious was filling my brain with chemicals of serene calmality. My conscious was telling me that I've found it! There was no doubt that those few times I had awoken it was me, but rather Sergio congratulating me for unlocking himself finally. The old Sergio I've been waiting to re-acquaintance myself with.
You wake-up sometimes recalling your dream you were just happening nanoseconds before opening your eyes and focusing your mind power on your physical word. This was not 'sometime' I woke up and felt. No recall. Just PURe ENERGy ENVELOPINg Me.
My mom said Today, I was born to me a mother and that is it. Not to know any fancy information etc.
I was born to change the word. It begins now.
**Well let me provide the antecedent events**
That night... NO! wait it was not Saturday night.. What I feel lead to my nirvana feeling because because of what happened on Friday night around 9 post meridian (pm). I drove to my sister Claudia's house to pick up my pay check. When my sparks were sparked.
I was unlocked. Brett, her boyfriend and business partner offered me a seat and a bowl of fruit. I went in expecting nothing but an apology and a paycheck and got the WD-40 that unrusted the person in me. In one night I was reminded of the smart man I was, of the time waster I was. My potential was seen in these people when I had not spent more than hours with them through the past week.
Months before I played pool volleyball and dominated the scene. "I've never seen you move like that before!" I was told by Brett. I am living right now as a rock with great power inside, and like a rock I keep it still, and cold.
Ecosmart lighting - their business - is in danger. It can collapse any day now. They are zig-zagging all over the place and I cannot even get a word in. They need me, and they need my intelligence. But that is besides the point.
I'm in a phase right now. I'm un-locking myself to find out who Sergio is again. And they both unlocked a door inside me. The Business Sergio Door. This event happened because I was bitching about a nickels and dimes when I should have been hasseling them about thousands of dollars. I insulted myself by stressing the pennies when I could have been using my intelligence to help the company and make us, them, thousands. Possibely millions.
The banana was amazing, the melon was even more divine, while the mango was unbelievable. (They were all refrigerated prior to my indulgence - thats probably why). I've never really had a father and Brett's never really had a Brother. He argued with me as if he was attempting to correct me or put me into place. Like a father would. His tears were noticeable at first then obvious seconds later streams of tears down his face and stillness in my face created an aura around us. We were in an energy field. Sharing the same values and idea.
This business is not about the money or about saving real estate men money. It is about Planet Earth. We have to GET Planet Earth back. We share ideals and intense passion about the current dilemma. Thats when it clicked.
I was offered the hand of God, a hand to join a team a brilliant mind to aid me aid him aid us. I accepted the brotherhood pact. Rich dad I call him. I have three dads. Hector my bio donor of Guanine DNA dbl-helix's, Roger the man who raised me from day one whom I now refer to as Poor Dad and Brett steaming his energy onto me surging his passion within me brilliant and hungry who is now referred to as Rich Dad.
Rich Dad slapped me around (not literally) and got me to pick up my hanging lip. *click* and there it was..............
IT IS AS IF THE GHOST WITHIN ME HAD AWOKEN FROM UNDER THE PILE OF DUST I WAS STORING HIM. ELEVATED FROM HIS GRAVE AND LEFT. AWAKENING A PART OF ME I HAD BEEN ATTEMPTING TO AWAKEN SINCE, ... SINCE.....SINCE I GOT HEAVY INTO DRUGS.
That night I hurried home playing "Knights of Cydonia" - Muse. Had a snack. Made French Pressed coffee iced foot and read about 6 pages of "The Fountainhead" *Mckenzie would be so proud* Promptly, I hurried to my desk turned on this contraption known as a laptop and began writing using this newfound unlocked energy. I Began Writing The Business Plan I Have Been Trying To Write For Over A Year. Since I have began I feel different. Like I AM Someone. It is Odd. I am super aware of this new cogwork and have ever since felt in control. In control of myself. I feel like I'm allocating all these bits and pieces that were scattered before and its doing something to me. To Sergio.
So I take Poor Dad to the Airport and return home to slumber. Sometime between 6am and 2pm I awaken about 2-3 times in this state of nirvana. My unconscious was chanting for me and when the soft morning light reflected into my cornea this image begins to fill in my head. It was completely symmetrical with curved sides, like that of the Spade in the game of cards. The spade like figure was contained in a green square and in the exact median. The feeling and intensity grew with every second. My unconscious was filling my brain with chemicals of serene calmality. My conscious was telling me that I've found it! There was no doubt that those few times I had awoken it was me, but rather Sergio congratulating me for unlocking himself finally. The old Sergio I've been waiting to re-acquaintance myself with.
You wake-up sometimes recalling your dream you were just happening nanoseconds before opening your eyes and focusing your mind power on your physical word. This was not 'sometime' I woke up and felt. No recall. Just PURe ENERGy ENVELOPINg Me.
My mom said Today, I was born to me a mother and that is it. Not to know any fancy information etc.
I was born to change the word. It begins now.