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I got to thinking today about a lot of wierd stuff thats happened this year, and thankfully, there was not too much to distract me from it while I was reflecting. I made a lot of really cool friends, lost touch with others, lived in a house with people wildly different from me, learned all about the procrastination tool that is facebook, had a bunch of medical issues which are ongoing, and made a resolution to run a marathon. Its been a wierd fucking year.
I seem all out of sorts this semester; theres something missing for me, and i cant quite put my finger on it. Its not that im unhappy, but Im preoccupied. Im worried about the people in my life, and i am concerned that my own health is steadily declining. Im stressed the hell out, so Im certain that doesnt help any.
A lot of the goals I had set for myself had to fall to the wayside because of the health things. The car-induced concussions, the pneumonia, the ulcer, the cancer scare.... I said it had been a wierd year.
Somehow, I managed to make it through, though not without my battlescars. I will probably never swim competitively again, even in the Masters program; I may never be able to complete the marathon i am signed up to do; I may never again be able to eat spicy food. But none of that is important right now, because I feel like the people in my life have made it all a little easier.
Such a relief to be able to say that!
So often I have encountered people who have only stressed me out, made me angry, and hurt me. Its wonderful to know that, indeed, even here in the shithole that is New Hampshire, there are people that will put aside their own desires to help someone out.
And that makes me feel so much better about being here for one more year.
College is the people who surround you even more so than the classes you take. Its nice to know that I'll be finishing it up with a group of people I feel comfortable with.
I seem all out of sorts this semester; theres something missing for me, and i cant quite put my finger on it. Its not that im unhappy, but Im preoccupied. Im worried about the people in my life, and i am concerned that my own health is steadily declining. Im stressed the hell out, so Im certain that doesnt help any.
A lot of the goals I had set for myself had to fall to the wayside because of the health things. The car-induced concussions, the pneumonia, the ulcer, the cancer scare.... I said it had been a wierd year.
Somehow, I managed to make it through, though not without my battlescars. I will probably never swim competitively again, even in the Masters program; I may never be able to complete the marathon i am signed up to do; I may never again be able to eat spicy food. But none of that is important right now, because I feel like the people in my life have made it all a little easier.
Such a relief to be able to say that!
So often I have encountered people who have only stressed me out, made me angry, and hurt me. Its wonderful to know that, indeed, even here in the shithole that is New Hampshire, there are people that will put aside their own desires to help someone out.
And that makes me feel so much better about being here for one more year.
College is the people who surround you even more so than the classes you take. Its nice to know that I'll be finishing it up with a group of people I feel comfortable with.