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[surfsunnwaves]

So, haven't really seen dave since wednesday. We talked a little bit but he had a ton of homework to do wednesday night and then last night he stayed in to drink with his roomates. So, I, not wanting to be the dull boring nerdy girl I have become this semester, got a hold of Boston and went over to visit him. Did 3 vicodens 3 different ways and wow, I was feeling so amazing. It was awesome chillin with Boston. we watched tv til almost 2am and then, by that time, i was ready to pass out. I called dave on my way back to my room and he told me he was just watching a movie cuz everyone else had gone to bed. For some reason - note: i hate myself for this - I felt really emotional and a lil hurt. I'm sure it was the vics and that i was exhausted. But, yeah, I'm definitely feeling way too clingy way too early. But I was good and kept my emotional self to myself and didn't act on my impulse to call him after we hung up or text him yadda ya. I dunno what was up with me but I definitely felt like he didn't want to hang out with me. It doesn't help that I feel enormous right now so I just let shit go to my head. I feel better today. I dunno when we are gonna hang out next. I have practice on sat and sun morning, work on sunday, and then my monday is hellish so v-day will be pathetic.
I have this theory that if/when I find a guy I think is amazing, I jinx whatever chance we have together by talking too much about it too early on. I, honestly, need to stop thinking so much.

Oh, and, he told me he's gonna turn me into a naughty girl ;). I'll just keeping thinking about all the awesome stuff he told me tuesday night. That was definitely the most fun/exciting/amazing night of my college experience.