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This past weekend was interesting.
So, the meet didn't go as well as we had hoped. I was close to passing out during all three of my races, like, seriously had to force myself to stay with it during the end of my 200 free and my 100 fly. shitty.
That night was fucking nuts. We started doing some casual drinking and as I was getting ready the fire alarm goes off. Well, turns out the sprinkler in the suit next to ours went off. So, we had to wait for about 2 and a half hours before we could get back in. It was horrible. I hadn't cleaned so all my shit was on the floor and here I am, freaking out about my room flooding. I was so freaked out I was almost in tears. Well, they finally let us in and we were lucky enough to have only gotten some puddle-age in the common room. I was so grateful. Turns out the building is tilted at an angle so all the room below the room and across from the room got flooded or had water damage, not the ones next to. Woohoo.
So, finally the real drinking commenced, Murph's shit got soaked so he was running around getting cameras to take pictures of it all. Meanwhile, Dani calls me so I can be her and Theresa's bitch and let them in, which I do with no problem. They are so trashed that they are openly trash talking me.. in front of me.. and hoffy and murph come in and instantly hoffy could tell I was pissed. Yet, I said nothing to them. Why give them the pleasure of knowing that they're getting to me?
So, I ditch them, Hoffy's all 'this wasn't me this wasn't me' all talking about dani and theresa comming over and at that point I just didn't care. I was so spent from stressing early with the flooding ordeal that I could care less about those two. My suitemates (Meliss and Alissa) were on my side 100%. They told me that I should go down there and just be all over hoffy and let him be all over me right in front of them... but I can't do that. I'm not vindictive and they haven't done enough to me to make me flip into that severe of a defense mode. But, I did go down there to party with all of them, just with Lis and Meliss with me. The three of us got to witness Dani and Theresa make complete asses of themselves so I felt quite satisfied that there was no need to do anything to them since they were doing enough damage to themselves on their own. Fantastic! I did end up taking care of Dani most of the night just cuz I still care about her, she was my good friend and shit, she's a fragile girl, I wanna make sure she's ok. I got absolutely no credit for that, but oh well. Theresa hooked up with murph again which was a huge no no. Then, Dani eventually left, all the guys were high and drunk, Theresa 'couldn't leave murphs bed or she'd throw up', and I, for once, wasn't carrying the 'i'm so incredibly faced' torch. Instead, I was good but still sober compared to other nights. Nate ended up telling me that he would get my back and he knew that none of the bullshit going on with the whole dani, theresa, me, hoffy thing was my fault, that I'm an awesome person, and he even made sure to inform dani of my efforts to keep her in her shirt, keep her skirt situated correctly, and stay with her when she was emotional. No one else bothered with her, except me. but whatever. I eventually talked to theresa who told me whe will never trust me again because hoffy and I have hooked up (except, no, he stays over, but there is no hooking up) despite me saying we would never do anything like that to her. That was a month ago, when I told her, and we have never hooked up. Whatever. So, I left after that bullshit and I was a teeny bit upset because she told me that he had called her everyday and shit. Hoffy eventually came up and we had a very rough talk but it was needed.
Things are good save for my paranoia. I'm so certain that Theresa is gonna try to get with hoffy this weekend. The gammas and the chi kappas (theresa's and Hoffy, Murphs, etc's sorority anf frat) are having a barnight sat night and I can just see her getting just as wasted as last weekend and working her way into hoffy's pants. I mean, if he wants her, fine, I just want him to tell me before others do. I just want honesty, I won't let myself get fed bullshit like I have every time in the past. So, yeah, this is me when my mind is out of control. joy.
aaannnyyywaaayyss, I'm probably heading down to Yuma, AZ for thanksgiving to chill with Jamie, my marine. We'll probably hit up San Diego and LA while I'm down there. Excitement!
So, the meet didn't go as well as we had hoped. I was close to passing out during all three of my races, like, seriously had to force myself to stay with it during the end of my 200 free and my 100 fly. shitty.
That night was fucking nuts. We started doing some casual drinking and as I was getting ready the fire alarm goes off. Well, turns out the sprinkler in the suit next to ours went off. So, we had to wait for about 2 and a half hours before we could get back in. It was horrible. I hadn't cleaned so all my shit was on the floor and here I am, freaking out about my room flooding. I was so freaked out I was almost in tears. Well, they finally let us in and we were lucky enough to have only gotten some puddle-age in the common room. I was so grateful. Turns out the building is tilted at an angle so all the room below the room and across from the room got flooded or had water damage, not the ones next to. Woohoo.
So, finally the real drinking commenced, Murph's shit got soaked so he was running around getting cameras to take pictures of it all. Meanwhile, Dani calls me so I can be her and Theresa's bitch and let them in, which I do with no problem. They are so trashed that they are openly trash talking me.. in front of me.. and hoffy and murph come in and instantly hoffy could tell I was pissed. Yet, I said nothing to them. Why give them the pleasure of knowing that they're getting to me?
So, I ditch them, Hoffy's all 'this wasn't me this wasn't me' all talking about dani and theresa comming over and at that point I just didn't care. I was so spent from stressing early with the flooding ordeal that I could care less about those two. My suitemates (Meliss and Alissa) were on my side 100%. They told me that I should go down there and just be all over hoffy and let him be all over me right in front of them... but I can't do that. I'm not vindictive and they haven't done enough to me to make me flip into that severe of a defense mode. But, I did go down there to party with all of them, just with Lis and Meliss with me. The three of us got to witness Dani and Theresa make complete asses of themselves so I felt quite satisfied that there was no need to do anything to them since they were doing enough damage to themselves on their own. Fantastic! I did end up taking care of Dani most of the night just cuz I still care about her, she was my good friend and shit, she's a fragile girl, I wanna make sure she's ok. I got absolutely no credit for that, but oh well. Theresa hooked up with murph again which was a huge no no. Then, Dani eventually left, all the guys were high and drunk, Theresa 'couldn't leave murphs bed or she'd throw up', and I, for once, wasn't carrying the 'i'm so incredibly faced' torch. Instead, I was good but still sober compared to other nights. Nate ended up telling me that he would get my back and he knew that none of the bullshit going on with the whole dani, theresa, me, hoffy thing was my fault, that I'm an awesome person, and he even made sure to inform dani of my efforts to keep her in her shirt, keep her skirt situated correctly, and stay with her when she was emotional. No one else bothered with her, except me. but whatever. I eventually talked to theresa who told me whe will never trust me again because hoffy and I have hooked up (except, no, he stays over, but there is no hooking up) despite me saying we would never do anything like that to her. That was a month ago, when I told her, and we have never hooked up. Whatever. So, I left after that bullshit and I was a teeny bit upset because she told me that he had called her everyday and shit. Hoffy eventually came up and we had a very rough talk but it was needed.
Things are good save for my paranoia. I'm so certain that Theresa is gonna try to get with hoffy this weekend. The gammas and the chi kappas (theresa's and Hoffy, Murphs, etc's sorority anf frat) are having a barnight sat night and I can just see her getting just as wasted as last weekend and working her way into hoffy's pants. I mean, if he wants her, fine, I just want him to tell me before others do. I just want honesty, I won't let myself get fed bullshit like I have every time in the past. So, yeah, this is me when my mind is out of control. joy.
aaannnyyywaaayyss, I'm probably heading down to Yuma, AZ for thanksgiving to chill with Jamie, my marine. We'll probably hit up San Diego and LA while I'm down there. Excitement!