i'm such an idiot
I get drunk, I get faced, I sabotage my chances with anyone or anything.
I...rock.
ok, kelsey, what happened to keeping it all in? no more of this bullshit. people don't like dealing with people who can't handle themselves and/or emotions.
yyeeeaah. swim team was suppose to have a party last night. i didn't go due to how stupid i felt after friday. it wasn't even that bad, it's just i know i fucked up anything i could've had with travis and made myself out to be a fool in front of the freshmen. woohoo. i'm cool.
i dunno if anything even happened last night. i sold shirts yesterday til about 5, came home, laid in bed. I passed out and didn't wake up til about 5 am.
i'm bummed. i need to not be bummed. i need to not be gay. no doubt, everyone hates me. looks like another year of sitting in my room. rock on.
i need to stop thinking. i just kill myself. if not for my parents, i actually woulda with a bottle of lortab and some beer. but i didn't.
i'm worthless. seriously. not worth anyones time.
I...rock.
ok, kelsey, what happened to keeping it all in? no more of this bullshit. people don't like dealing with people who can't handle themselves and/or emotions.
yyeeeaah. swim team was suppose to have a party last night. i didn't go due to how stupid i felt after friday. it wasn't even that bad, it's just i know i fucked up anything i could've had with travis and made myself out to be a fool in front of the freshmen. woohoo. i'm cool.
i dunno if anything even happened last night. i sold shirts yesterday til about 5, came home, laid in bed. I passed out and didn't wake up til about 5 am.
i'm bummed. i need to not be bummed. i need to not be gay. no doubt, everyone hates me. looks like another year of sitting in my room. rock on.
i need to stop thinking. i just kill myself. if not for my parents, i actually woulda with a bottle of lortab and some beer. but i didn't.
i'm worthless. seriously. not worth anyones time.