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It's funny when you come to realizations. As random and seemingly pointless as they may be, you feel obligated to post them on LJ. Sad, I know.
I've come to the realization that God is in control. DUH! I can be so stupid sometimes. When it comes to, well everything, my natural tendency is to run myself around in circles for hours on end and go absolutely nowhere. I'm the master of manipulating situations so that they work out the way I think they need to in order to accomplish whatever it is I want to be acomplished. And I don't say that with pride. It's a horrible thing. It's complete self-suffiency. And the funny thing is that when I succeed in manipulating the situation, to "my" way, it turns out 10 times messier than if I would have left it alone. Left it alone, or in other words, TRUSTED GOD. God's been gently whispering "let it all go and trust ME", and I've been consciously ignoring His whispers. It takes a million failures to enlighten a fool. Well I think I've reached the million because suddenly it seems so clear, and so easy, to let go of all the things I've held so dear, and give them all to You. Where once letting go seemed to be giving up, now it equals success because God is controlling my circumstances, my heart, my emotions. It's all in control. I've succeeded! Because I got my prideful self out of the way. Thank you God for giving me this peace and understanding. How undeserving I am!
Letting go, of the things I hold so dear
Letting go, of all my pain and all my fear
Letting go...
I've come to the realization that God is in control. DUH! I can be so stupid sometimes. When it comes to, well everything, my natural tendency is to run myself around in circles for hours on end and go absolutely nowhere. I'm the master of manipulating situations so that they work out the way I think they need to in order to accomplish whatever it is I want to be acomplished. And I don't say that with pride. It's a horrible thing. It's complete self-suffiency. And the funny thing is that when I succeed in manipulating the situation, to "my" way, it turns out 10 times messier than if I would have left it alone. Left it alone, or in other words, TRUSTED GOD. God's been gently whispering "let it all go and trust ME", and I've been consciously ignoring His whispers. It takes a million failures to enlighten a fool. Well I think I've reached the million because suddenly it seems so clear, and so easy, to let go of all the things I've held so dear, and give them all to You. Where once letting go seemed to be giving up, now it equals success because God is controlling my circumstances, my heart, my emotions. It's all in control. I've succeeded! Because I got my prideful self out of the way. Thank you God for giving me this peace and understanding. How undeserving I am!
Letting go, of the things I hold so dear
Letting go, of all my pain and all my fear
Letting go...