I know this sounds cliche....
But blah blah valentine's day is like 4 days away. Should I just insert another long depressing rant on here. Yeah why the fuck not. I remember people used to read this like back in the early 2000s bc I used to write witty things on here or funny observations. Blah I'm over that. I know it sounds lame but all I want is to love someone. Hold hands, cuddle, hugs and kisses. Have someone to wake up to and smile at, go out to eat with, two step with and hold in front of me at shows I want to go to instead of going alone. The white lies are playing this Sunday at fitz. Apparently it's a band obsessed with joy division and echo and the bunny men. I might go. Stephen Malkmus and the jicks are coming soon, definitely going to that and finally Hayes Carll on march 1st at fitz. Probably going to tear up when I hear him play Beaumont, it's a song I used to constantly play when I missed a certain someone but she's a mom now and probably married so blah. I'm probably going to take a cab to a bar Friday night and play my bloody valentine sometimes, new order love vigilantes and the smiths over and over until the jukebox breaks. I envy the people out there who have someone to go out with on that night. It hit hole this year when on my birthday I went to dinner alone. I just didn't feel like bothering anyone and I will probably do the same on valentines day. El ranchero or bbq sounds good. Regret not going to see queens of stone age last night but I just too sad and shitty to go alone. Got my tax return back already putting money aside for a harley when all this probation is done. Ugh everytime I hear someone start there bike I just sigh and say one more year.