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well everything is gay right now i pretty much am kinda like in a fuck u i dont give a fuck what any one thinks or says kinda mood i just dont care about anything right now.Now a realtionship with someone can be a beautiful thing it can make u feel so good like life cant get any better but how could something so good completely turn around and tear u apart.I wish i knew why people go out i mean why seriously u say u love sombody but that sombody could fucking turn your world upside down with just 7 words why let sombody in ur life like that unless u know that that pearson wants to spend the rest of there lives with u and u feel the same way i mean u never really know maybe thats why people go out but to me its so confusing!U know going into a realtionship that it might not last long but even knowing that u fall in love or u get attached so when u break up its even worse i mean wtf is that why!Ahhhh it can be so depressing but the best is when the pearson that u care for more then anything in the world breaks up with u but wants to hang out i mean how do people do that seeing someone that ment so much to u but just hanging out as friends not being able to kiss or hold hands ur just supposed to drop all those feelings for them and be friends to me it seems almost impossible and that one thing tells u its over dont hang out with them but then that feeling comes to u what are u thinking if they mean so much to u why wouldent u want to see them how could u not hang out with them and u just cant say no i mean wtf do u do then espically when u start to go out and u realize there the best thing that happens to u yea of course ur gonna argue and fight i mean who doesent but when u try to change and she just breaks up with u its like why do i bother ahh i dont know she means the world to me still but why were not going out any more!I dont know what to do theres not much i can do about this she doesent want a realtionship and thats it its over and its so hard when it sinks in all the things u have done with that pearson all the good times all it is is a memory its over no more god how can people deal with a feeling like that.The bottom line is life sucks right now and i dont know how to deal with half my problems everything feels like its falling apart or sliping through my hands