"Living life for love & i dont care who knows about it"

[surferpanda]

Well these past 2 weeks have been nothing but interesting~ Every emotion that could possibly be felt has been wrapped, tangled and twisted together. I think i have grown up alot and realized many things both good and bad but things that have broadened my viewpoints and put many things into clearer perspective and have started me on the road to becoming a stronger person than i already am. Still trying to figure out why things keep continuing to happen the way they do...is it me..is it them...is there something i could do differently...But i just keep continuing to remind myself & keeping hope that one day soon everythnig will fall into its place... and i'll find that someone who i can love unconditionally with all my heart, someone i can be myself with, someone who likes me for who i am, someone i can do absolutly nothing with yet still have the most amazing time~I know that day will come & i'm so excited for whatever the future has to bring. Each day the idea to move outa state..for a bit...even a month or two away would be amazing i thnik...someplace where i know no one....no one knows me...time to reflect on the important things in life...and starting new on a clean slate~ Some news i heard today was a major shock, Although i am completley over it!! and so incredibly happy for them both and their engagement, i dont think i will ever understand what went wrong with us and how things ended up like this...a bitter mess..I have no hatred at all, i've offered nothing but goodness to him..and still want nothing but the best for him! Things happen for a reason, i'm a firm believer in that~What is meant to be will be and what isnt meant to be will only make you stronger! ..alright enough with that.. I want to say this though: I LOVE my friends more than anything in this entire world, without them i have no idea what i would do, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH, I love you all. I send an Especially big thanks to one person who has helped me more than i could ever repay..They somehow always find the perfect words to say to put the biggests smile on my face each and everytime i'm down, they've held me while i cried, and their hugs are the most comforting ones ever, story time is the best ever, they always have one special word that brightens even the darkest of skies, stuck up for me when i was to shy to, gives the BEST advice ever and i ABSOLUTLY LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART! This person is amazing, so incredibly kind, sincere and once again did i mention AMAZING~ THANK YOU MY LOVE <3 I'm here for you always and eternity!

On the flip side, i got a new truck yesterday, absolutly love it! Soo incredibly happy~This is one of the first huge steps in my life...my first actual payment and huge responsibility. I'm growing up...and so excitedd!!! Bring it on!!

Alright well thats enough for now... Love to everyone and i hope things are going well everywhere.

Live to Love & Love to live~Goodnight