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**...sara.....shes called the other night....i had to force myself off the phone befor i strating having an emtional break-down...she fucked me up so bad i cant even begin to explain.....im feeling more and more hallow everyday now...when i know i shouldn't.....i even statred working more to make me feel better...i just can't stand when couples come in, hangin all over each other...it makes me sick....so i stared my new hours and my new pay....i'm up to $1,000+ every pay check w/2 checks amonth, and i know thats amazing for an 18 yr old...but then i realize that what good is money like that when oyu have no friends to spend it with....no one you love to buy special suprises for....all im doing with my money is saving up to get out of this apartment so i can move on to a more self-relient / more lonely life...i think im gonna have my phone disconnected...only because i have no freinds to call and obviously that means i have no friends to call me....i honetsly dont know if i should even go throught the trouble of getting a new new one set-up because its highly unlikely somome will call, or ill even have someone to talk to.**
later.
later.