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i don't like programming. actually, that's not true. weirdly enough. it's like...i wish i knew what i was doing better so i could like it more. i just dislike it cuz i can't do the entire thing by myself. but i'm getting there. last night, i understood it but there were some things i didn't know...so jon helped me. i think i like it because you get a sense of accomplishment when it's done. i like running the program and getting the right numbers.
today was chill. it was...a good day. i expected it not to be a good day. i just had class at 12. after my class, i went to shogun to eat by myself. don't feel sorry for me. i really enjoy alone time. i was about to type "i really enjoy alone time with myself". that's why i'm switching from lit. to psych. hah. but yes...there was some stuff going on at pc (wushu, ascension, etc.) so i just sat upstairs and watched and ate. dang...the weather has been SO nice...what the heck, it's february. i wore a tank top so i could tan. hahah...i'm really not that dark anymore. the sun felt ridiculously good. i sat out there for an hour. i actually wish i had more time to sit and think. still got stuff to deal with. it's weird cuz sometimes when i think, i have like...arguments in my head. cuz i think one thing, and then contradict myself with another thought. after i sat in pc for an hour, i got a small jamba and then i went towards center to sit in the sun. i ran into amy and andrew, so i spent another hour talking to them in the sun =)
i love learning. i always have. yesterday was a really good reminder. when i was little, i used to ask questions like crazy. i wonder why i don't do that as much anymore. but yea...so leon took me and lauren shooting. and the whole day, i felt like i asked a million questions. when we were driving there, we were talking about leon's car, which is stick, and then i asked about driving stick, and then later on i asked a buncha questions about the guns. we shot three handguns and a shotgun =D my target "man" got two headshots with the shotgun. the shotgun was fun. but i liked the handguns better. especially the sig. i learned a lot. it was fun. i like asking questions. thank goodness leon was patient with me in answering them all.
so far i have two things from this week that i realized are hecka good at taking your mind off of things:
1) BOUNCE HOUSE!!!
2) shooting range!
i think the reason why today was so good was because...i just felt an unexpected sense of peace. thanks, God. i felt He gave me this day of sunshine to just sit and be by myself and reflect. i went to bed really sad, woke up expecting the same. i walked out my door and heard God say to me "Surprise! Here's a day of sun just for you! Smile! Be happy! Enjoy life, stop dwelling, and LIVE!"
today was chill. it was...a good day. i expected it not to be a good day. i just had class at 12. after my class, i went to shogun to eat by myself. don't feel sorry for me. i really enjoy alone time. i was about to type "i really enjoy alone time with myself". that's why i'm switching from lit. to psych. hah. but yes...there was some stuff going on at pc (wushu, ascension, etc.) so i just sat upstairs and watched and ate. dang...the weather has been SO nice...what the heck, it's february. i wore a tank top so i could tan. hahah...i'm really not that dark anymore. the sun felt ridiculously good. i sat out there for an hour. i actually wish i had more time to sit and think. still got stuff to deal with. it's weird cuz sometimes when i think, i have like...arguments in my head. cuz i think one thing, and then contradict myself with another thought. after i sat in pc for an hour, i got a small jamba and then i went towards center to sit in the sun. i ran into amy and andrew, so i spent another hour talking to them in the sun =)
i love learning. i always have. yesterday was a really good reminder. when i was little, i used to ask questions like crazy. i wonder why i don't do that as much anymore. but yea...so leon took me and lauren shooting. and the whole day, i felt like i asked a million questions. when we were driving there, we were talking about leon's car, which is stick, and then i asked about driving stick, and then later on i asked a buncha questions about the guns. we shot three handguns and a shotgun =D my target "man" got two headshots with the shotgun. the shotgun was fun. but i liked the handguns better. especially the sig. i learned a lot. it was fun. i like asking questions. thank goodness leon was patient with me in answering them all.
so far i have two things from this week that i realized are hecka good at taking your mind off of things:
1) BOUNCE HOUSE!!!
2) shooting range!
i think the reason why today was so good was because...i just felt an unexpected sense of peace. thanks, God. i felt He gave me this day of sunshine to just sit and be by myself and reflect. i went to bed really sad, woke up expecting the same. i walked out my door and heard God say to me "Surprise! Here's a day of sun just for you! Smile! Be happy! Enjoy life, stop dwelling, and LIVE!"