My wonderful lil summer...
Yea wow i cant even remember the last time i wrote in this. Its been awhile. Well either way i cant remember much that ive done. Mainly tryed to hang out with every1 possible. Just do the same ole movies, Dunkin donuts, clearwater, and Busch Gardens. Everything is changing for me. My life is getting better and worst by the day. To think im in my last year of school now. My friendz have gone off to college to leave me behind with a couple of my friendz. My friend Kelli moved away to the tip of the panhandle. Ive hung out alot with Andrew and such same with Matt and Tim. Clearwater was pretty fun havent gone in like 2 or 3 weeks i think i will next week or so. Im still working and keeping myself busy. Theres really nothing special except one thing. The highlight of my summer. See i was just home with my friend looking up junk online came to a wierd site thought to click on it and it came to another wierd site. Well this gurl caught my eye. Totally cute just thought maybe id have a chance to talk with her. So i took her name trying to see if it would work on aim which it did. Well it all started me thinkin id just mess with her since shes 19 didnt think she would wanna talk to me. Most r shallow dont think its cool and all. We started talking and i started to realize that shes not wut i expected. She seemed like an outgoing, cool, overall fun person. I really liked her personality and all everything went well. We finally met eachother in person. Alot diff from the pic but no disapointment. Very cute... Ever since then we kept talking and texting more and more everyday. We started meeting up every night talkin and hanging out. Everything was going to perfect. Couldnt be any better. After awhile we argued a lil and more constently. But we alwayz made up soon enough. Well the thing is i started to like her and have feelings for her and vise versa. Ive only known her 1 month exactly today i believe and its felt like ive known her for such a long time. Well we started to talk about the whole "US" thing yea u know. See like we both have feelings for eachother and all and were wondering where its leading. Well we talked and such and than started geting touchy. Pretty much flirting and hold hands hugging and such nothing big. Well the other night we sat in my car and we finally kissed. She was so nervous i found that so cute. But i just had to do it. I dont regret anything at all and yea theres a couple gaps in the story but i cant think or write it all. But now here i am home just thinking bout her. See i would put my thoughts bout her but i will under this all. We fought earlier over sumthing so stupid and here i am scared of losing her as a friend. She means so much to me and she has no idea how i feel. I know theres a chance will make up for all this but at the moment im scared and every moment ive had with her is flashing thru my head. I just hope everything works out. Im not here and im not just gonna let her go. I miss her so much now... Ahh i cant even think and now i have to go to my grandmas in New port richey to drop sumthing off real quick. I hope i get to talk to her or maybe even see her tonight. Well this is all i have time for below is how i feel bout her. Joe
Weve had talks bout how we feel but i dont think ive ever told her to the full extent. I might be young but im not stupid. See Kelley makes me feel great. We cant even go a day with out talking. Its so hard to. Especially the traditional not seeing eachother everynight. Ive been falling for her more and more, it just feels so right when im with her. I love being around her, having her in my arms and looking into her eyes. Shes just so beautiful to me. Everything is great and i care about her so much. Im just scared of getting my heart broken. I know how it feels to have feelings for sum1 so much and for them not to care. I just dont really feel like getting hurt. Gosh theres so much more i wanna put but my finger is hurting so much right now. lol yea i know im a dork. I dont want to lose her. I wanna be with her more like it. Shes everything to me and is one of the things that makes me happy. She has no idea how she makes me feel its so hard to explain to her.
Weve had talks bout how we feel but i dont think ive ever told her to the full extent. I might be young but im not stupid. See Kelley makes me feel great. We cant even go a day with out talking. Its so hard to. Especially the traditional not seeing eachother everynight. Ive been falling for her more and more, it just feels so right when im with her. I love being around her, having her in my arms and looking into her eyes. Shes just so beautiful to me. Everything is great and i care about her so much. Im just scared of getting my heart broken. I know how it feels to have feelings for sum1 so much and for them not to care. I just dont really feel like getting hurt. Gosh theres so much more i wanna put but my finger is hurting so much right now. lol yea i know im a dork. I dont want to lose her. I wanna be with her more like it. Shes everything to me and is one of the things that makes me happy. She has no idea how she makes me feel its so hard to explain to her.