Feeling Down!!!
Yea well Im starting to not like my life. Everything is going wrong lil by lil. Totally shot down hill in the last 2 weeks. Starts with work i like it sum days and others i dont. Than now idk if im gonna be able to have one if i dont get my grades up. Well actually my AlgII grade. Than now starts with Melissa. Yea always sumthing. Well my mom asked me the other day if it felt the same and sumtimes it does but sumtimes it feels totally diff. I mean im glad im with her i would hope she knew that since u know no1 really wants us together. Alot of people have gave me crap for dating her again. But its my life. I mean i know i could move on but i didnt want to. Well melissa kinda acts diff now. We dont do many things together. No more sweet memories. Really sucks. Her parents dont really like me. IM sure of it. IDK but i dont think they want us together. Its kinda funny how that one month we were separted Melissa did everything bad but her mom doesnt see it that bad but if i were to do sumthing her mom would like talk to me and say i shouldnt of done that or sumthing. Now Me and Melissa are almost to our one year. Makes me wonder if we will make it. A year is a long time and idcare that we are technically young it still means alot. Ive been thinkin it would be a waste to throw it away. I asked melissa if she thinks we should keep going. Because i dont wanna keep goin out with sum1 whose gonna end up breaking up with me. Like we have to look into the future. I have been looking at if we would really make it or like how hard its gonna be when i go to college and shes still in High school. Like another thing is that I dont wanna be sum dissapointment if her parents didnt approve of us. Like its wierd weve been together a long time and i dont feel like giving it up. But i wonder if we would be able to make it the whole way. Theres things now that bother me. Melissa is always talking about my friendz in a bad way. Like she gets mad if a girl says Hi to me or if i talk to a girl or see one but she is allowed to go talk with guys and talk to Kyle. She yells at me if i mention erin b/c shes like u freakin kissed her but than she talks to Kyle the one she made out with right infront of me. Earlier today not mentioning who she was talking to but shes like u freaking talked to whats her fuckin face. I mean shes one sided. She gets to see the guy she kissed everyday and talk with him but i cant talk to any girl. I was standing next to her today and she didnt even notice b/c she went all googly eye upfront with Kyle. I hate how she is. Theres so much more. Shes giving me problems now. I really wish my life would be better. I need to see how things are gonna work. Im afriad that they wont. I hate this i have more to type but i cant concentrate. Well i guess ill leave it at this. Bye