WOW!!!!

[surferchic22]

How can I go from feeling so high to feeling so low in only a matter of one night?!?!? My life is about to completely CHANGE! I am a little aprehensive about it all, but I know in my heart that I will be ok and that I can do this! I am going to be going to a new school, getting a new job, and living in a completely different city! Yea...I am terrified, but I KNOW that I can do it! I am having to find inner strength in myself right now which is a first for me! I have always had someone holding me up and holding my hand all my life and that is the majority of my problems! It really sucks and hurts right now, but I know this is what I need! I have been struggleing with this and myself for a long time, but was too afraid to jump into it or face my problems b/c I knew I would have no one to fall back on, but this time I am getting thrown into it b/c someone up there knows that it is what I am supposed to be doing! I am just sorry that I had to hurt someone so special to me in the process of me figuring out what I was supposed to be doing my life at this point! I know we will continue to be friends b/c what we had will not and cannot just die over night! I am just really scared of what is to come in the next few months! But, all I can do now is buckle my seatbelt and prepare my self for the ride b/c my life is going to go on with or without me, but preferably with me! I know this is going to make me a much stronger person, I just wish the healing process would hurry up and get over...lol!

Last I have 3 people that I need to apologize to! You know who you are! I should not have acted the way I did the other night! It was way out of character for me! I'm sorry!

I love you!!!!