AGH!!!
I am so confused on what to do with my friend right now!!!!! She is going through a lot and screwing up REALLY bad! She is addicted to drugs, she gets plastered EVERY night of the week, and never comes to class(the only two that she has, she dropped the others)!!!!! It is really sad and I am really sad for her and I probably worry about her more than I should, well I know I do! I just can't help it! We have been friends and in each others lives through everything since the 3rd grade! Up until I met Dwain she was the first person I would call when I was facing a big problem! Now I almost don't want to be around her b/c of what she has turned into! I have made little hints at her to come to class and even straight told her that she needed to get her shit together! I have even sat down with her and talked to her but nothing has worked! I am sick and tired of worrying about her all the time! I have enough on my plate without having to deal with someone else! I am just afraid she is going to kill herself and I could not deal with that! I know I would feel like I just did not do enough to help her, but I can give nothing else at this point! She really put me over the edge the other day when she lied to me telling me that her mom was really sick and that she had to take her to the doctor on a day our english papers were due and got me to come to her house and pick it up for her to turn in to our teacher. I thought it was kinda weird that she was taking her mom to the doctor but i gave her the benefit of the doubt and believed her and went and picked it up anyways! Well, that was my mistake...she was laying in bed asleep when I got there! I was so pissed that she had lied to me to skip class on top of me talking to her and trying to help her she just used me! Later that night I texted her and probably said some things that I will regret and some things that I should not have, but I have literally had it! I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! I want to be here for her but it seems as if I am just wasting my time! I ahve always siad that i am over it just being mad but this time I really do think I am wasting my time on a hopeless person as much as it hurts me to say that! I want to be there for her but she has to want it!!!!