bitter? moi?
hmm is it really worth me keeping a LJ any more ? imean hardy any one reads it and i hardly have time to write in it any more. I mean who would miss it if it went *poof!* and dissapeared? no many thats for sure.
Well anyways just some random thoughts today, got a bloody migrane and i cant stay in front of the screen for to long. Im gonna try in the new year to leave medway iv not been away now for nearly a year and working 6 day weeks has really gotten me down (well that and all the other crap thats gone on lately)
I guess I just need some time away to think clear my head and time away from this area that hold to many memories that are fresh in my mind. I told sean last weeknd that im ready to be a dad im 21 for gods sake but i know with every fibre of my being that im ready. Dunno if i cld couple but i know im ready to try. my time will come i guess I just have to get through all the 'issuses' i have atm and hope to find a nice girl whos willing to put up with my mood swings my temperment and most of all me.
Hahaha who am i kidding theres no1 like that out there. How would love me? i mean i cant keep a gf longer then a year and iv ment to love them with all my heart in the cases of suzy and hannah
well im sure i'll find someone, im just scared im the kind of person who likes being in relationships who likes having someone there. That i'll end up with no one alone a batchelor good looks last only so long and i hope i have more to me then that, i hope people look at me and think im a nice guy who has personality rather then just a pretty face or a piece of cock for them to fuck.
well im gonna sign off now and wallow in my self worthless (well actually im just gonna use the loo then sleep lol but it sounds better eh)
Well anyways just some random thoughts today, got a bloody migrane and i cant stay in front of the screen for to long. Im gonna try in the new year to leave medway iv not been away now for nearly a year and working 6 day weeks has really gotten me down (well that and all the other crap thats gone on lately)
I guess I just need some time away to think clear my head and time away from this area that hold to many memories that are fresh in my mind. I told sean last weeknd that im ready to be a dad im 21 for gods sake but i know with every fibre of my being that im ready. Dunno if i cld couple but i know im ready to try. my time will come i guess I just have to get through all the 'issuses' i have atm and hope to find a nice girl whos willing to put up with my mood swings my temperment and most of all me.
Hahaha who am i kidding theres no1 like that out there. How would love me? i mean i cant keep a gf longer then a year and iv ment to love them with all my heart in the cases of suzy and hannah
well im sure i'll find someone, im just scared im the kind of person who likes being in relationships who likes having someone there. That i'll end up with no one alone a batchelor good looks last only so long and i hope i have more to me then that, i hope people look at me and think im a nice guy who has personality rather then just a pretty face or a piece of cock for them to fuck.
well im gonna sign off now and wallow in my self worthless (well actually im just gonna use the loo then sleep lol but it sounds better eh)