it's like mans best party only happens when he dies
i haven't posted in months, i haven't been able to, life is plain and my thoughts are too deep to run wild on the internet.
haylee jessie estella nadeau♥
august 27th, you changed my life forever♥
it all comes to easy, everything to do with you. your my heart, forever.
it all makes me wonder, what would he of looked like? i don't know if it hurts anymore. i don't think it does, because i look at her and it's all i know.
but leland sounded so pretty..
i don't think i know how to forget what you did, let all alone get over it. it hurts, only because it was so deep. i love you are big words, only for my ears, not hers. i know the past is the past, but forgive me for living in it every now and then.
i have a new life. a life without drugs, a life without drinking, a life without everyone who contributed to that life. i've left my past behind, i've left all the people behind. i hate who i used to be, more importantly, i hate the people that filled my life. i've said i'd start over many times, but this time is for real. i can tell, i can feel it.
nothing really makes sense right now, to be honest. there's a thousand things inside my head, none of them make sense. outside of haylee, nothings really that perfect. when i lie on a bed just me and her, i forget the world and the horrors of it. i never want to leave. i don't even want to think about the things in my head.
when i think about our love, i think about her, and how it hurts.
when i think about my life, i feel like i've accomplished nothing.
when i think about you, i try to imagine what you looked like with that bullet through your head and the thoughts that occupied it moments before you put it there.
i'm going to stop. like i said, i feel like it's a little much for the internet to know, so i'll retire to paper and a pen, where i can hide it all away, because i'm dashingly good at it.
haylee jessie estella nadeau♥
august 27th, you changed my life forever♥
it all comes to easy, everything to do with you. your my heart, forever.
it all makes me wonder, what would he of looked like? i don't know if it hurts anymore. i don't think it does, because i look at her and it's all i know.
but leland sounded so pretty..
i don't think i know how to forget what you did, let all alone get over it. it hurts, only because it was so deep. i love you are big words, only for my ears, not hers. i know the past is the past, but forgive me for living in it every now and then.
i have a new life. a life without drugs, a life without drinking, a life without everyone who contributed to that life. i've left my past behind, i've left all the people behind. i hate who i used to be, more importantly, i hate the people that filled my life. i've said i'd start over many times, but this time is for real. i can tell, i can feel it.
nothing really makes sense right now, to be honest. there's a thousand things inside my head, none of them make sense. outside of haylee, nothings really that perfect. when i lie on a bed just me and her, i forget the world and the horrors of it. i never want to leave. i don't even want to think about the things in my head.
when i think about our love, i think about her, and how it hurts.
when i think about my life, i feel like i've accomplished nothing.
when i think about you, i try to imagine what you looked like with that bullet through your head and the thoughts that occupied it moments before you put it there.
i'm going to stop. like i said, i feel like it's a little much for the internet to know, so i'll retire to paper and a pen, where i can hide it all away, because i'm dashingly good at it.