OH MY JESUS

[surf_colorado]

god i am so fucking pissed right now that i could seriously like............. kill a feather. okay, that's an underestimation. so basically i got treated like i didn't even exist today at school and my "friendship" with who used to be basically my best friend is over. then i have to go out to fucking dinner with my family but my brother gets out of it because he wants to hang out with friends. firstly, when i was 13 and in 8th grade my mom would NOT let me stay out until 9:30 with a bunch of kids she doesn't know... but apparently for my brother that is completely acceptable. so we go out to dinner... almost painless, then we go to my brother's friend's house to pick him up, he isn't answering his phone, we aren't really sure which house is his friends, so my mom gets out to check... there are a bunch of girls standing around and they talk to my mom trying to cover up for my brother. my brother finally comes walking up the street claiming that he had been in his friend's backyard in the hot tub, my mom was standing in front of his "friends house"... he came from down the street... HELLO LYNN BOHANNON?!?! so then, he gets in the car... apparently he dropped the brand new cell phone in the hot tub that my mom had to buy for him because he dropped his other one in the washing machine. then he wants to walk up to his other friend's house and hang out there for 2 more hours... what does my mom say?? YES. that would make it 11:30. then, he realizes he's left his backpack somewhere, but he's not sure who's house it's at because he's been to so many yet he said he would only be at one. so we drive around the whole fucking neighborhood looking for his fucking backpack, finally find it... then we have to drive him up to his other friend's house, get their phone numbers, and get my sweatshirt and hat back which apparently he had borrowed from me and given to his little girlfriend without informing me. at this point i'm fucking fuming, i have an english FINAL paper to write, a sketchbook to do, and a fucking math quiz to study for AND it's the last day of the marking period in which my grades will be sent to colleges and they'll decide weather or not i'm a complete fucking imbasil, i didn't even spell that right, or not. so then we get home after i have to drive my ass up to that girls house to pick him up and i'm fucking pissed... i haven't even started my homework and i've been up since 5am this morning because i have to write two other fucking papers. SO JESUS CHRIST... and he says "i guess i really just don't care about you" LIKE I DONT EVEN MATTER.

i'm seriously SO pissed i'm about to cry,

am i being irrational?

sorry for the rant/bitch fest.