a.d.d.
so it's been hella days since i've posted, hella days. life is pretty okay... i'm more than mediocrely behind in school as senioritis begins to tighten its grip even more... bella's birthday was yesterday, she is so totally 18 now which is awesome, how come i am like the youngest senior in existence? i don't turn 18 til the end of june...
i'm hanging out with nick again... i'm kind of impartial to it in that i know him really well and that friendship doesn't take a lot of work because we know each other really well though there still is some drama... i guess i just got tired of not having anything to do when bella was over at joe's house which was like all weekend every weekend. i'm to a point where i just want someone to kick it with and not worry about shit like making plans or anything... it'd be nice to have a boyfriend but i don't see that in my near future.
is it kind of sick that i am like straight up fantasizing about college? like spending a whole day in a café reading books and analyzing them (today i want to be a lit major, yesterday i wanted to be a chef) and drinking a crazy amount of coffee, then taking a cigarette break every now and then... being able to dictate my own schedule and be my own person. this whole fantasy will be real once i get into UCSC... please jesus please?
i got into mills a week or two ago... i wouldn't really want to go there at all but it's a back up, a school i KNEW i'd get into if i applied. i spent a total of like 1 hour on my common app, i just used one of my UC app essays... i guess it was halfway decent. i applied to a bunch of other schools, i wouldn't mind if i got into one of those schools in oregon that i applied to, ii went there for christmas and it was gorgeous, i really liked Bend. thinking about that whole break makes me miss Sarah super much... she's pretty much my life. sitting in a hot tub in the middle of the snow, with a bottle of our friend jose and a pack of cowboys... i couldn't care less about the skiing or snowboarding i did.
so that's pretty much it. i have an entire lit essay that i need to do and a bunch of spanish but i really cannot be bothered right now at all. school tomorrow is going to be hell after a semi-relaxing weekend... bella and i went up and swam this evening... friday i went to a movie, yesterday i pretty much went and surprised bella with a gift and then sat on my ass...
i'm going back to work at Noah's soon, once i finish all my financial aid crap, probably after school hours cause working weekends are a pain in the ass... that's it for real i promise.
i'm hanging out with nick again... i'm kind of impartial to it in that i know him really well and that friendship doesn't take a lot of work because we know each other really well though there still is some drama... i guess i just got tired of not having anything to do when bella was over at joe's house which was like all weekend every weekend. i'm to a point where i just want someone to kick it with and not worry about shit like making plans or anything... it'd be nice to have a boyfriend but i don't see that in my near future.
is it kind of sick that i am like straight up fantasizing about college? like spending a whole day in a café reading books and analyzing them (today i want to be a lit major, yesterday i wanted to be a chef) and drinking a crazy amount of coffee, then taking a cigarette break every now and then... being able to dictate my own schedule and be my own person. this whole fantasy will be real once i get into UCSC... please jesus please?
i got into mills a week or two ago... i wouldn't really want to go there at all but it's a back up, a school i KNEW i'd get into if i applied. i spent a total of like 1 hour on my common app, i just used one of my UC app essays... i guess it was halfway decent. i applied to a bunch of other schools, i wouldn't mind if i got into one of those schools in oregon that i applied to, ii went there for christmas and it was gorgeous, i really liked Bend. thinking about that whole break makes me miss Sarah super much... she's pretty much my life. sitting in a hot tub in the middle of the snow, with a bottle of our friend jose and a pack of cowboys... i couldn't care less about the skiing or snowboarding i did.
so that's pretty much it. i have an entire lit essay that i need to do and a bunch of spanish but i really cannot be bothered right now at all. school tomorrow is going to be hell after a semi-relaxing weekend... bella and i went up and swam this evening... friday i went to a movie, yesterday i pretty much went and surprised bella with a gift and then sat on my ass...
i'm going back to work at Noah's soon, once i finish all my financial aid crap, probably after school hours cause working weekends are a pain in the ass... that's it for real i promise.