hazardous cargo...

[surf_angel_808]

For some reason, emotionally I have crashed…my heart aches with the problems of others…I can’t control shit…how I feel or anything around me…I wish I could go away…home would be beautiful…you know what I mean…I haven’t felt this bad in forever. Its no ones’ fault but my own…I care too much…or too little…maybe you care too much…no too little…I can’t make anything better…you feel empty after I leave but you make me leave…I cant help but feel like I failed you…I’m supposed to make people better…instead I made you worse…How fair is that?? I tried to love you but instead you broke me…I just want to scream and feel the atmosphere echo my despair. I am slowly falling and there isn’t time for anything…I have been at the bottom of the well, there are blemishes and imperfections on the walls, anger, sorrow and rage filling its walls that seem to be closing in…you think one would rise as space becomes smaller….instead my guilt weighs me down and I’m gasping for breath that wont come… suddenly I realize there is no one to save me…not in the way I have saved others…there is no one for me…
Je suis sans espérance…I’m not sure of my grammar but that’s how I feel…