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Ever feel like you're in teh worst place sometimes? That goes for geographically as well as mentally, and other indescribable ways. Once again, I feel as though I have no friends. Yes I have many "friends" too many "friends". What I don't have, are friends. People who don't call me only when they want or need something. Friends that ask ME to do something with them. I hate having friends that I can't hang out with just about anywhere. AKA guys in fraternities, and going with them to a frat party. I KNOW I need more female friends, but after one of those, I realize why I don't. They are shallow, rude, unclassy, tackless, flighty whores. To a certain someone who is up for meeting at coffee shops or other places, yet not hers because her roommate hates me, FUCK YOU. If you're too afraid to be faced with me in front of her, you are not worth ANY of my time, and fucking quit bothering me in italian, I don't want to fuckin help you, and I don't ever want to partner up with you. You were in Italy this summer too, but I bet you didn't talk to a god damn italian IN italian like every other ignorant american.
I am the initiator for fucking EVERYTHING. People asked me all last semester, " How the hell could you up and go live in a country by yourself?!" Easy, I dont' have anything worth staying for other than my family. Which is why I need to get as rich as my dad so I can fly them to Italy whenever I want. But when I look at it that way, I realize I have failed, or am a coward. Italy is starting to look like a place I'm simply running away to. How lame.

Fuck everything. The next person to ask me about something, Imagine my 2 middle fingers in your fuckin face, and my lips mouthing the the words "FUCK OFF". This is not up for discussion