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Wow, it's been 10 months since my last entry. Sorry everyone. Last I remember it got pretty ugly back in October, and I lost my love for LJ. Sorry LJ. I'm on my knees BEGGING for forgiveness!!! Well, I have definitely had some pretty eventful past couple of months. All of which I plan on catching up on.. but first I have to get something off my chest. This.. Apology, if you will, is higly necessary in order for me to carry on with my secular lifestyle. Kidding, don't have to be catholic to have a heart. GOING BACK TO POINT--- Anyways, a while back I was grew a conscience while having sex. Yeh I know, HORIBBLE TIMING. BUT NOW if there's ever something bothering me, I can't go on until I've done something to clear my name. so here it goes:
Dear a certain person in a certain band that played in a certain Warped Tour '05:
You might one day read this and think... 'what the fuck is she talking about?' or you might say to yourself ' It's about time! Crazy redheaded monster'. That fact is, whether or not you felt wronged, I feel I've wrogned you and must plead for mercy, you simply say I'm sorry in an LJ. The latter will suffice I'm sure.
I never realized the caliber of love you feel for 'jane'. I do not liek jane. She's a bit of a pompous asshole, and I can't stand her. BUT then maybe she has reason to feel so. she 'met' me at one of your concerts and as ALWAYS do with EVERYONE I greeted you with much enthusiasm and affection. This to girlfriends cause a "Homewrecker" alert to go off in the head. SO! she has forever labeled me as someone who gonna jump you any chnce I got. HOWEVER, 'jane' doesn't know me, so she technically doesn't have the right to ride me off as quick as she did. PLus I thought, what an idiot, it's was PRETTY obvious YOU weren't the twin I was totally ready to jump( exxageration makes for a great read, dont' take too literally).
I promised myself I would not express my, dislike, for jane (as she is a controlling wench in MY mind) to you, ever. However, right before we left gainesville towards WT '05... it slipped. I'm sorry. In a way I felt that my weekend was ruined with the knowledge that 'jane' was coming. But that wasnt't the only reason I was such a loner and exact opposite of my usual self, which is center of attention, class clown. I have a lot on my plate which I'm unable to let evade for my every thoughts. Thought ehre isn't any excuse for the way a acted, a little mercy could be granted?
WHY did I make fun of you for you music?!! I don't know, I'm a hypocrite. I HATE it when people make fun of my or judge me for what I like. Then I did it to you. I dont' likle Simple Plan, You do. That great. I HATE liking the exact same things as someone else. I have no right to cut you on your style and interests, I permit you to kick me int eh ass for the one the next time you see me.
Most importantly, I said some rude and inappropriate thigns about someone you love very deeply. I am unable to understand this love because I am unable to see the good in this person. But you obviously can, thus making you the better person. HOWEVER, as my instincts have only proven me wrong 2ice in my life, I finish off by saying PLEASE be careful. I hardly know you, which probably makes this novel of n apology eve weirder, but I know this much: You incredibly intelligent, funny, compationate, loving, and lovable. I dont' want to see you get hurt, so PLEASE be careful. I know what it's like to love somebody, and almost destroy myself trying to make it work. It it works out, then great. But if it doesn't, it's ok, you'll love again. Believe me, I wrote the book "The secret to Life". Chapter 6: You will loe again, I promise. Ok so that one is off the lame-o-meter charts. Just don't kill yourself over this ok?
Damn, I don't feel bad about a damn thing anymore, fuck yea. Well, unless you never read this... shit. you must respond, I don't vare if it's to say You SUCK or You're the Queen. Anything will do. Ok, I'm done. Goodnite to all you probably didn't understand this.
Dear a certain person in a certain band that played in a certain Warped Tour '05:
You might one day read this and think... 'what the fuck is she talking about?' or you might say to yourself ' It's about time! Crazy redheaded monster'. That fact is, whether or not you felt wronged, I feel I've wrogned you and must plead for mercy, you simply say I'm sorry in an LJ. The latter will suffice I'm sure.
I never realized the caliber of love you feel for 'jane'. I do not liek jane. She's a bit of a pompous asshole, and I can't stand her. BUT then maybe she has reason to feel so. she 'met' me at one of your concerts and as ALWAYS do with EVERYONE I greeted you with much enthusiasm and affection. This to girlfriends cause a "Homewrecker" alert to go off in the head. SO! she has forever labeled me as someone who gonna jump you any chnce I got. HOWEVER, 'jane' doesn't know me, so she technically doesn't have the right to ride me off as quick as she did. PLus I thought, what an idiot, it's was PRETTY obvious YOU weren't the twin I was totally ready to jump( exxageration makes for a great read, dont' take too literally).
I promised myself I would not express my, dislike, for jane (as she is a controlling wench in MY mind) to you, ever. However, right before we left gainesville towards WT '05... it slipped. I'm sorry. In a way I felt that my weekend was ruined with the knowledge that 'jane' was coming. But that wasnt't the only reason I was such a loner and exact opposite of my usual self, which is center of attention, class clown. I have a lot on my plate which I'm unable to let evade for my every thoughts. Thought ehre isn't any excuse for the way a acted, a little mercy could be granted?
WHY did I make fun of you for you music?!! I don't know, I'm a hypocrite. I HATE it when people make fun of my or judge me for what I like. Then I did it to you. I dont' likle Simple Plan, You do. That great. I HATE liking the exact same things as someone else. I have no right to cut you on your style and interests, I permit you to kick me int eh ass for the one the next time you see me.
Most importantly, I said some rude and inappropriate thigns about someone you love very deeply. I am unable to understand this love because I am unable to see the good in this person. But you obviously can, thus making you the better person. HOWEVER, as my instincts have only proven me wrong 2ice in my life, I finish off by saying PLEASE be careful. I hardly know you, which probably makes this novel of n apology eve weirder, but I know this much: You incredibly intelligent, funny, compationate, loving, and lovable. I dont' want to see you get hurt, so PLEASE be careful. I know what it's like to love somebody, and almost destroy myself trying to make it work. It it works out, then great. But if it doesn't, it's ok, you'll love again. Believe me, I wrote the book "The secret to Life". Chapter 6: You will loe again, I promise. Ok so that one is off the lame-o-meter charts. Just don't kill yourself over this ok?
Damn, I don't feel bad about a damn thing anymore, fuck yea. Well, unless you never read this... shit. you must respond, I don't vare if it's to say You SUCK or You're the Queen. Anything will do. Ok, I'm done. Goodnite to all you probably didn't understand this.