intense emotions
I feel like water hitting the pavement - everywhere at once and it's intense.
I'm procrastinating. I'm behind. Does it matter?
I have to re-evaluate where to apply to work - but I have been told just to apply everywhere.
Hopefully I can get myself a job before I have to end up taking one that I see no future in...do I go public interest? Do I leave it for later? Is that even possible? There are too many people to help, too many battles to fight...why waste away one summer not doing what I really want to do? Why? to get paid. Hopefully I won't find anything too soul-wrenching.
Time to get on top of my sh*t...before my dad ends up cleaning up my mess. I just hope I don't get myself into trouble and lash out - out of rebellion like I used to do with anything he wanted me to do. hm...but I'm older. I'll handle things better. (just keep telling myself that.)
I'm procrastinating. I'm behind. Does it matter?
I have to re-evaluate where to apply to work - but I have been told just to apply everywhere.
Hopefully I can get myself a job before I have to end up taking one that I see no future in...do I go public interest? Do I leave it for later? Is that even possible? There are too many people to help, too many battles to fight...why waste away one summer not doing what I really want to do? Why? to get paid. Hopefully I won't find anything too soul-wrenching.
Time to get on top of my sh*t...before my dad ends up cleaning up my mess. I just hope I don't get myself into trouble and lash out - out of rebellion like I used to do with anything he wanted me to do. hm...but I'm older. I'll handle things better. (just keep telling myself that.)